Dearest mother,
Your phone is flat yet once again
and when I wanted to call
I have some news I wish to share
so plug it in the wall!!
Your Loving Child

You push me down again and again
Make me lonely and sad
You tell me lies
I now believe is the truth
I live my life
The way that you dictate
To scared to move away

Am I doomed to spend my life living in the shadows of another person’s dreams?
Does it make you feel better?
Does it make you feel whole?
When will you just leave me alone?
Alone in the dark the one place I feel safe
Far from your words
That cut me like a knife

Is it too much to ask?
To be allowed to be left alone?
To crawl out of this pit of misery you put me in?
When will I be allowed to leave this hell?
When will my life begin?

I don’t understand how you can be so mean?
And thrive off my insecurities?
I want to be safe
I want to be loved
And somehow I don’t think that will be

I know there's a place in my future and past
Where I wont have to deal with you
But right now I'm here
And I just have to get through
Be strong and maybe I will win.

Hundreds of voices
All sounding at once
Streaming and swirling around

When stopping to hear
All of the sounds
Many conversations assult my ears

The girls on the corner
Are chatting away
Talking about someone else

The boys on their way
Glance back at the girls
Then discuss the way the look

Children are laughing
Dogs are barking
And cars are passing by

A lovely old couple
Sit on a bench
Reminiscing of how life used to be

The dust in the streets
Swirl by in clouds
Spreading around all the junk

As people go
Along through their days
These noises wait to be heard

But yet as you look
Throughout the noise
The wonder can be seen

You sit on your throne of lies
Surrounded by people just like you,
The sorts to turn and take
All you have
At the first sign of weakness

You look down on me
As I sit on my chair
Woven with all my insecurities and fears
Ones I should not have
And yet here they are
And I can’t help but blame you.

There was judgment in your eyes
As you tore down my walls of confidence
A sense of enjoyment on your face
Yet judging, always judging.

I watch as friends turn to you
The way they turned from me
I watch as you pull
My world down around me

I move on from you
I rebuild my life
And re find friends
And am finally happy again
And yet there you are
Judging, always judging,
My every move
Yet now I don’t see

I watch as your throne is taken
And can’t help but think
Maybe, just maybe
That judgement will be gone now

But it’s still there
I think it always will be
You will always
Be judging

I often sit
And wonder out loud
Who my real friends are
And who are in it for the ride
I wonder what they see in me
I wonder what they want
I wonder how long it will be
Till they tire of their charade
What is it about me?
That attracts the fake friends
The horrible ones
They bring you down with every word.
How is it that I’ve ended up,
Living in the shadows?
Of people I call friends
When will I turn my life around?
And live in the sun

They left in numbers
Too great to recall,
Fighting for freedom
And peace for us all.

Many were young,
And most were afraid,
And all of them knew,
The fate that they faced.

And yet they still fought,
Never gave up,
To protect the world
And all that they loved.

We will remember,
We will persevere,
Keeping close
What they fought for,
For all those years.

We shall move forward,
We shall stand tall,
We shall remember,
Those who were torn.

With the hope of tomorrow,
We will conquered our fears,
Facing our lives,
Even when they seem hard to bear

We will remember,
We will live on,
Striving for freedom,
And peace for us all.