It's more than thoughts
On paper
It's my life, my soul
My lifeline
The rope I cling to when life gets
To tough
For me to handle
Can't breathe
It's more than a melody in
My head
It's the reserve
I breathe

My oxygen fuel in the form
Of ink
Tracing black ribbons across
White paper
The most beautiful image in the world
With this pen I can create
An entire universe in a single stroke
My hand, my mind, my love
My essence

I smell something in the air
It feels like a superstition
For I cannot prepare
For the pounding reminisce
It tosses through the longest nights
And I can'r put up a fight
At least not anymore
Because you're gone

Since you've been gone
I can only find the wind
It blows through me like a hollow shell
Nothing is here, it used to be within
But when there's nothing inside
If I never love
Will I ever cry?

What is life
Give me a knife
To end my life
End the emptiness inside
This can't be what life is really like

How blind I must have been
Not to see my life flash before my eyes
This life is not meant for me
Leave me alone and let me be
I don't need the pity you have given me
Look at what your sheltering has done to me

If I had known what it was like
Would I still be the same
Am I the one to blame
Your trickery was cruel and evil
To believe there could be everlasting love
To make life seem to be a gift from up above
To make me want something that won't ever be
So tell me now, is this what life is meant to be?

You think talking is the cure
Somehow I remain unsure
That speaking is the way to light
To cast away the gloom
My throat scratches from the tears
Seems I've been silent for years
Now my endless talking will surely be my doom
You say I can get better
Though I am scarred by the scarlet letter
The darkness is my friend
And will always have its way
My voice is gone as I lay crying
On the floor I bleed here dying
Stubborn enough to say
"There's nothing left to say"

Why lie
When people die?
Why ****
When you can heal?
Why scream
When you can yell?

Coming out of hell
With burning desire
Twisted by hunger
Longing for the stranger
Bringing brought to life
By a single amber
That fell from the fire
To be buried deep inside

Lightning thrashing
Thunder crashing
The moon blood stain
The white sheep slain
Burning grain of pain
Making my feelings drain
Not a single tear to cry
With eyes that had seen children
Stripped of their innocence
The world burnt to ashes

Fear overcoming sanity
****** tears of the angels
Painting the world in red
Hearing screeches of chains
They gave into their grief
As a storm of chaos grew
I look into the ****** puddle
A stranger staring back at me
Who am I now?
In time I hope that I will be able to tell

You have so much pain
That you hide
How do you do it
Keeping it all inside

I can only wish
That I could be as strong
I guess I've just
Been holding on too long

But I won't be
Holding on much longer
I just wish
I could be stronger

But instead today
I'm giving up
Bye
I hope you have more luck

She'll stand strong
She won't fall down
Though heaven cries their song
And hell weeps along
Though she wears the tattered gown
And the shattered crown
Her story won't be told
A forgotten history left to grow old
Though her heart will be cold
Her eyes will be dry
She won't cry
She'll learn to fly
Her head held high
She'll move on
In the light of breaking dawn
She's a born survivor
She'll spread her wings of light
And take flight

Beauty is in every single thing

Even in the parted skin as the blood flows from within
Like a new born stream it takes shape
As it drips down my stomach and flows beyond
I see my own version of beauty everyday
When I look hard and slit away
Beauty is in every single thing
In all my scars and every wound being created

Can everyone just stop
And take a look around
Look at what we've all become

Our society is disgusting
For everyone gets judged
It does not matter who you are
Someone will fuss

If you gay your bullied
If your skinny your told your fat
If your pretty you think your ugly
Would you look at that

There's so much pressure put on us
No wonder people die
Should it be from war
Or committing suicide

You're read like a book
As soon as you come in
Not even given a chance
An opportunity to fit in

Everyone grows up
Most people too fast
Stay a kid while you can
Childhood doesn't last

It makes me want to cry
To see pain in the heart
Of those who have to hide
Who they really are

It really is disgusting
So just try to use your head
And realize just what we've become
A society that is dead

Why am I this way
Why was I made
I'm confused everyday
I should just fade
They say they don't care
Well ******* too
I shouldn't even share
These stories that are true
They all hate me
I guarantee they do
I should just leave to see
What they do and who
I'll just go
They won't even see
I'll just go
So I can be me

Lays there a girl with icy blue eyes
She lays with a smile as she dies
Her eyes stay open
Her smile stays firm
A hole where her soul laid
The devil as her little maid
She sends him back off to find her soul
When he comes back to see the girl
He finds her asleep, a knife to the heart
He realized as that was not smart
He takes the knife and licks the blood
As he hears a big loud thud
He turns and sees the girl
Sinking into the ground
She takes him down with no sound
Just pitch black darkness all around

Nothing stops for life
Even when you dearly need it to
The earth keeps spinning
Yet all I can think of is you

I'm done with ****** up reality
And apparently it's done with me
I keep getting stabbed
And the pain is trapped in me

The numbness is hollow
And hollow prevails
I was told he died for me
With wood and rusty nails

Is this a story
Did he ever exist
The savior I've learned to love
Has fallen to abyss

The blood keeps flowing
Down and over my hand
Why does hurt have a habit
Of being washed up on the sand

You can try to help
But I'm too numb to feel
I've been consumed
I don't know what's real

So I'll paint my nails once more
And hope you forgive me as well
I promise that this nothingness
Will go and burn in hell

What is happiness
Everybody has an opinion I guess

Is it a good day with someone you love
Is it the flight of a white dove

Is it the laugh of a child
Is it the sight of a tigress in the wild

Is it ice-cream on a hot day
Is it something a sweet lover might say

I think it is peace that you feel inside and out
I think it is love that makes you want to shout

I think it is in your arms, my safe place
I think it is that beautiful smile on your face

Was it a mistake letting you leave
Should I stop, beg, and plea
My lover you once were
Each other's hearts we tore
Tears shed each night
Our love not quite right
****** tears down my face
Was the love we had a waste

Letting you go I had said
My bleeding heart is left dead
To be happy I must push you away
This my gentle heart I must sway
In time you will find another lover
A new life for you to start over
Having the life I had dreamed
Inside I shouted and screamed

Nothing in life would be the same
And I am the only one to blame
To be friends would be a lie
So this is my final goodbye

Hey
That one word
Those three letters
Can start a lovely friendship
A lifetime full of love
A fierce war
It all depends
On you
On me
It is up to us
This could be hate
This could be love

Love
that one word
Those four letters
It can set you free
It can lie
It can break your heart
It can change the rest of our lives
For the good
For the bad
It's up to us
It's up to you
It's up to me

What if
Those two words
Those six letters
They can change everything
For the good
For the bad
It can change a life
Your life
My life

Just one question
Only you can answer your question
Only I can answer my question

Hey
Sometimes that one word, those three letters can lead too...
Love
Sometimes that one word those four letters can lead to...
What if*
Sometimes those two words, those six letters can lead to...

Any number of things
It's up to you
It's up to me

The night sky crowded by clouds
The moon shone blood red
The smell of lightning filled the air
The presence of death is near

Chills went up and down my spine
The rain starts to pour
Like little needle at my skin
Yet I feel no pain, I shed no tears

Standing in front of me, I see myself
The person I once was and will be
I have become a stranger to myself
The person in front of me disappears

Something hard was in my hands
There was something warm and wet on my arms
I look down and saw a puddle of red blood
When did this knife get here

As I lay to die, I do not cry
Instead I think of all the pain that I have caused
I was a failure to those who I love the most
This is what is feels like to die.

Here let me hold your wrist
And let me kiss your veins
And let me rub my hand along your back
And blow away your strains
Would you like to see the stars tonight?
Instead of ceiling tile?
For rain to kiss your collar bone
Your eyelids and your smile
The universe caught in your eyelashes
Before you go back to bed
To be stolen away for just one night
I promise it's not just in your head
See? You feel my fingertips
You know I'm really there
You really feel the running now
The wind current through your hair
Don't go home to cotton sheets
Stay here forever, feeling my skin
They talk melancholy eternity
Not a world of light like the one we're in
It's real it's real it's real
If you can see and touch and smell
We're far from a heaven you could ever dream up
But we are very far from hell

When I see you
My mouth goes dry
My palms get sweaty
And I get shy

When I see you
I have to smile
Because being with you
Is worth my while

When I see you
No words can describe
The warm feeling I get
That fills me inside

When I see you
I wonder if you know
That I feel so empty
Whenever you go

When I see you
I think what would be
If you said that
You love me

As I look upon you
You turn around and stare
I thought you'd never see me
I thought you'd never care
Your eyes are hard to see
But the blue stands out alone
I can see your thoughts within them
Upon a face of stone
I wish that I could tell you
The thoughts inside my head
The words just won't come out
With a crooked smile instead
I thought it was only me
Until you saw it too
You know the truth inside me
I can't help loving you