You're using me as a crutch
But I'm broken too

I could never stop the fall
I'm going down with you

You're the Titanic
And I'm the crew

Like a jumper
Without a chute

Or an ensemble
Without a flute

Deeper and deeper
Like roots

I don't know
What to do

I'm drowning
With you

I think we both
Always knew
This would happen

I love deeply
But never in the right way
Please don't depend on me much
I never learned how to stay
I just need to know that
You will be okay

I keep observing life
As an outsider
How does one assimilate
Into a world
That they were born into

Be careful what you ask of me

Because I would set myself aflame

So that I could light your way

Drowning or falling?
Floating or flying?
Is it raining inside
Or am I just crying?
Is time moving slowly?
Or just not at all?
I want to stop climbing
I long for the fall
There's chaos in stagnance
This silence is too loud
I feel lost in solitude
But smothered in a crowd
The darkness is freeing
The sun is too bright
I just want to hide
I thrive in the night
Just leave me, I beg you
It's too late for me now
Don't leave me, I beg you
I need you around
When you're gone I'll be left here
Alone with the sound
Of choking on oxygen
That can't be found
Pick me up
I'm falling  d
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                                                      n

For so long I had been suffocating
I forgot what it felt like to be able to breathe
I looked to the sky and in the orange hues of sunset
I found my freedom
And in the crisp night air
I found my soul
Even contained within the confines of my car
I could feel the vastness of the Earth
And it's heartbeat reverberated up
Through the mountains
Through the pavement
Through the tires of my car
And kept my own heart beating
And I thought to myself
"This is what is means to be alive."
And maybe for the first time, I truly was.