Jenna Andrews

Jenna Andrews Jan 2012

Razor,
I thank you for being my friend.
You are all I have
And you'll be here until the bitter end.

You understand me.
You know I'm not after pity.
You've been here for it all,
You've watched me fall.

You don't leave me,
When the rest of the world,
Is far gone and free.

You don't judge,
You don't hate.
You put me in a content state.

So I thank you razor,
For putting up with my sorrow,
Because without you,
I might not be here tomorrow.

Jenna Andrews Jan 2012

Disappointment

Blood shedding,
But this time it's different.
It bleeds in a shape.
The word "die"
The word will last forever,
Forever carved into my leg.

Suicide all around,
Two in one week.
Will I be next?
No.
Mother says it's selfish.
Cannot disappoint mother.

Will anyone save me?
Will anyone hear the call?
Will anyone stop me?

No.
I'm on my own.
I need to be strong.
I will push through.

For who?
Not I.
No.
Everyone else.
I cannot disappoint.

Jenna Andrews Jan 2012

Fear

I fear for the day.
The day that someone finds my scars.
Someone will put the pieces together.

I fear the thoughts on my mind.
The mind I once loved,
The one that now wants to **** me.

I fear becoming that cliche girl.
The girls that I thought didn't really exist.
The depressed, suicidal girls that I have morphed in to.

I fear fear.
Fear is holding me back.
Fear is controlling my life.
**** the fear, not yourself.

Jenna Andrews Jan 2012

Dark Nights

There is blood on my sheets,
A knife in my hand,
A cut on my stomach,
Yet no one will understand.

My happiness is all an act,
I don't want to be alive,
You're pushing me away,
I cannot survive.

Jenna Andrews Jan 2012

Untitled

I've come so far,
*yet I have fallen so deep

Jenna Andrews Dec 2011

The Depth of Thought

I'm floating around,
       Not knowing where to go.
Trying not to think,
       So tears do not show.
Any sign of emotion,
       Will make me blow.
And here I'll stay,
        Way, way below.

Jenna Andrews Dec 2011

****, It's Nighttime

There are nights that I endlessly cry,
There are nights where I wonder why.

There are nights of pain and fear,
There are nights that I cannot shed a tear.

There are nights I want to run away,
There are nights where I really need to stay.

There are nights that I feel so alone,
There are nights where I just want to be ******.

There are nights where I need someone by my side,
There are nights where to myself I sit there and lie.

Each night is different,
Yet strangely the same.
And there is only one
That I need to blame

Each night I know my destined fate
And it won't get better at this rate.