I want you and me to go so high that earth will seem a speck
I want to go so far with you that our feet will be none left
I want me and you to last so long that all will watch in envy
I want you to love me to the point its weight is heavy

What is ugly
Isn’t really ugly
But is not good enough to those who seek perfection
And I don’t

You grabbed my hand
And you’re pulling me down the exact paths you once placed ‘wrong way’ signs in front of.
And I’m thinking
‘Perhaps you’re just feeling sympathetic’, because you once were unintentionally scared of my love.
‘Too good to be true’
Is the line that’s repeated inside of the walls in my head ever since.
But I best believe it
‘Cause believing is better than doubting it’s true and losing my chance.

If fears
Were our laugh-at’s and don’t-care’s
If worries
Were our yeah-whatever’s and who-care’s
If failures
Were our pick-me-up’s and motivations
If don’ts
Were our must-do’s and determinations

How would the world be then?

If I die, remember me in summer
Remember how I loved the sun
Loved outdoors, loved to run
Loved the grass and having fun
And if I die, thank the sun

If I die, remember me in autumn
Remember how I played in leaves
Loved the earthworms and the bees
Loved the wetness on my knees
And if I die, thank the leaves

If I die, remember me in spring
Remember how I loved the rain
Loved sitting at the window pane
Loved dancing, singing, playing games
And if I die, thank the rain

If I die, remember me in winter
Remember how I loved the snow
Loved going to the Christmas shows
Loved singing songs of rhudolph’s nose
And if I die, thank the snow

If I die, please thank the snow
For falling from the sky
So pretty as she glazes earth
Thank her if I die

If I die, please thank the sun
For lighting up my day
So warm and happy constantly
Thank her if I pass away

If I die, please thank the rain
So simple and serene
For all those times I’ve danced in them
Please thank them if leave

If I die, please thank the earth
For its wonders and its gifts
For showing me what beauty is
And teaching me to live

I will gladly tell you truths when the whole world is lying
I will stand by your bed
And whisper to you
Hold high your drooped head
And fill it with truth
And I’ll tell the uptight world “it’s alright, no one’s dying”

I will gladly make you laugh when frowns are dominant
When everyone is frowning
You’ll be shining through
In sad faces you are drowning
But I’ll be saving you
Your smile will be obvious and your laugh, prominent

I will gladly make you soar when the ground beneath you parts
Below you cracks the earth
And you’ll begin to fly
For all that you are worth
I’ll never let you die
And when I take you by the hand, I pretend it is your heart

Why is it that, when one thing in your life gets knocked over
A domino effect occurs
And all things come tumbling down?

There are certain things that I do certain ways
And you mess them all up and then laugh in my face
But I don’t get mad; I adapt to the change
I won’t be stopped by your little kid games

It’s funny because
I’m as patient as they come
But can’t wait for you

It was a snowflake
Six sided, white and fluffy
Caught it on my tongue

Death could be beauty
If you defined it; but soon
Death will define you

Your hair is a nest to beauty as birds and magic as feathers and a hat to a mind that is bursting with butterflies of lovely and songs of amazement

Your eyes are a galaxy themselves and I’m lost with the stars and the planets and moons and their colors are colors you cannot find in your house or outside or anywhere else but your eyes

And your voice is a sound no human could repeat or imitate as each word has its own unique feel and movement and each one carries me a different place with different stories and worlds and I visit each one as you speak to me

And your neck is a structure built perfectly holding up your valuable face and sturdy enough to appear as strong and as powerful as the trunk of a tree in the woods

And your chest, how it moves when you breathe and your breaths contain rhythms and notes that I cannot avoid for the death of me

And your arms and their movements and actions and how they hold sound alongside them that whistle when they sway
And their shape and how it so much appears as a branch that holds hands that are berries and good to the taste

And your fingers and how they are those vines going up walls on the sides of those buildings downtown and their slippery grace and the power you hold in your tightly closed hand and the power that flees when you loosen your grip

And your legs how they carry such a grand prize and how they help you to move and spread your wonder and greatness about so inspiringly
And the way they move, so swiftly and I’m sure they could dance such a dance that no human’s eyes have ever focused on before


And your feet

And how I hope one day they take you straight to me

If you’re just here for fun and games
Count me out.

If temporary is your name
Count me out

If what involved, I’ve felt before
And familiar things are at my door
And routines will start to show up more
Count me out

I pick you apart
To find flaws that I don’t like
Because I love you

You don’t feel the same
And I need a reason to
Feel the same as you

Show me how I can be just as important as a single tree;
A necessity on its own, but part of many.
Show me I'm just as unreal as the ocean;
Almost never-ending and full of unimaginable mysteries.
Show me I'm as grand and vital as the whole earth,
For if I am not, I will simply love the earth instead.

Tomorrow will be the blanket of today
The one that makes it more warming and comfortable
Because today was dreary and cold
And tomorrow will vanish it away
It will no longer be an importance, although it never really was
It will hide the gloom away into the attic of my head
To never to be visited, and never have to be

My words are lying on their side;
I’m sorry they’re so lazy, there’s really nothing I can do
But you open up and your words fall out like a slippery fish
How are your words so daring and beautiful?
Teach me

The movie was coming to an end
But we were in no rush to shuffle and get up to turn it off
We were solid; comfortably still and both knew
We would stay like that long after the credits
(Inhale, exhale. Your hand on my back slightly moves to the left)
We watch the screen with scrolling eyes
Laughing at the funny-sounding names we spit out loud
Gathering pillow corners in our fingers
And touching them with our noses
(Inhale, Finger tapping, rubbing your foot along the back of mine)
The names turn to nothing but we become entertained
By other things; the way my hair looks now
That I’ve been leaning on it that way
For two and a half hours
And how your eyes look like they have freckles
And I am examining them and trying
To convince you of this
But you say it’s not possible, for your cheeks hold them all
(Exhale, eyes turn away, you smile,
You travel your finger up and down my arm)
And we fall asleep
But not to end the night; to continue it
Because our sleeping bodies know that we’re beside one another
All night long
And that’s how our sleeping bodies like it
(inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale...)

Rain and its beauty
And the beads that fall off my
Slippery raincoat

And the glaze they place
On things they land on, and how
They can make rainbows

And the sound it makes
When it’s landing in puddles
Or just on the ground

And how it fell from
So high up and it is still
So perfectly round

And I wonder what
They think of dying so soon
After they are born

And their unique scent
And how rain is a cold thing
But makes you feel warm

I have one hope for right now,
I have many, but those are for later
And I keep this hope with a ribbon tied around it
In a bow
Because it’s worth enough to be dressed up pretty
And delicate paper wrapped around it three times
Because it’s fragile, like hopes are
The way they break so soon and easily
But I have made sure to keep this one safe, and
Currently it is lying in extra protection;
Styrofoam and bubble-wrap
With the bow still around it
But I opened it today, and I set it close to the edge
And I nudged it daringly
And it wobbled like a see-saw so teasingly
But slowly came to a comfortable stop
And after that,
I knew I had this hope very well in my hands
And I know now, it’s not going to leave
Until it sprouts
From a hope to a reality

You drive me around
And take me to places I’ve never known
Or even thought to know
And these places
Aren’t always anything special on their own
But they’re places that you brought me
And so they’re special places I went with you
Special, unlike if I had been alone

You are all puppets, you do as your superiors say
Invisible strings sprout out of your backs
And the only person unable to control anything is you
Your job is to make the little ones laugh
Until they're at your age, where they will learn like you
And give their lives to someone else to take over
You’re all zombies, and all blind to what you’re doing,
Drink up their words; of your own, you are sober
But you asked for this; you signed the papers
And you let the whole thing happen
The entire show you’ve had the scissors in your hand,
But you were blinded by the attention; by the clapping

When I die,
I’d like to be buried in my PJ’s
For I will not be dead

Forever lives the things I did,
And all the things I said,

I will still be quite alive, I will linger
In the grass you picnic on,
In the dust upon your finger

And so my body, buried,
It is sleeping,
But I’m not gone.

So put me in my pyjamas,
Because forever, I’ll live on.

Those green eyes of yours
My favourite thing to see
So now please face me

I look around
For something just as pleasing
Who am I teasing

I was once the color of the ocean,
Sad and alone, and eventually
Got sick of it all
Turned green
And I had the notion
That I should be happy
That I should be smiling like the sun
Turned yellow
Was dancing, with no expectations
And was always having fun
But soon after, I became pink
My cheeks were warm, and flushed
Had a crush, went crazy in the head
My heart expanded slowly
The feeling became stronger
Turned red

Always, it has been you, it’s always been you
Been you, always, it’s been you always
Craved, have I always, have I always craved for you,
Denied it always, always will I deny it
Eager for you, I’ve always been so eager,
Forever I’ll love you, love you always and forever
Going to love you, always will I, always going to
Has been you from the first, from the first it has been
It’s always on my mind, on my mind it always is
Just barely believing, barely any belief
Kidding about it, joking about the truth
Loving you is automatic, it’s automatic loving you
My heart is getting sick, my heart will always be sick
No love is portraying from you, portraying from you
Open are my arms, my arms are wide open
Please move, please react, move in some way
Quiet, too quiet; tell me words I need to hear
Reacting too slowly, react, do something
Saving all my words, my words are being saved
Talking to myself, telling myself, reassuring
Unable to breathe, breathing is impossible
Vanished all hope, my hope has been vanished
Wishing so hard, I’m wishing for you
Xoxo, Sincerely
Yours truely,
Zealous and waiting

My feelings are screaming at you, pounding on my body’s walls,
Getting angry at my silence because they’re dying to get out.
This reoccurring notion gets me every time, but truth is, they never leave.
They know only one route.
Everything about you sits inside me, I feel you combine with me,
And I can’t ignore this thing that I know.
Take off whatever shield you bear, and let my feelings pour into your veins,
And there, let them live and grow.

I feel all that’s inside me shake, criss-cross and tumble,
Ending up in places they shouldn’t be.
My feelings get confused and are unsure of how much
Of themselves to portray, or let go of completely.
I sit and stand and lay and think, but my thoughts do not
Know enough to figure things out.
And I know I should be using my head, but my heart is
What all this commotion’s about.

Things are knocking at my door, and their faces are familiar
Because I’ve felt them before.
Feelings are falling from the sky and landing in my body,
And it’s a bad night for rain, my thoughts are still sore.

Your face is plastered all over my brain’s walls,
And I’m just waiting for my heart to start receiving them too.
Your hands are what my body is waiting for,
There are prints already there because my body’s impatient for you

Come collapse beside me and come to the realization
That I come to each time we speak
Travel into my mind and down my spine and see what I’m about,
Your lack of contribution makes me weak

I hate the sounds that I am hearing,
These sounds they haunt me so.
These sounds are sad, and make me frown,
These sounds are sounds of letting go.

An airplane has the sound of leaving,
A faucet, one of running (away),
The fridge reminds me of standing still,
Lost for words with none to say.

The floor, it creaks, but not as much,
‘Cause now it’s only my feet left
You aren’t around, and the lack of you
Has taken sound; committed theft.

This lack of feeling is so loud that I’m dizzy,
And it has dug a hole with its strength that no words could fill
And I’m reaching towards nothing,
Running forward, just to feel myself pulled back into guilt.
And where is the sound?
Because silence gets boring after so long,
And where is my sight?
Because all I’ve been seeing are visions of things that are gone.

I’ll stop getting mad
If you stop giving me all
Those reasons to be

And I will trust you
As soon as you stop giving
Me reasons not to

Our love sails in uncharted waters,
Where the water is murky and we can’t see the ground.

Our love walks in forests at night time,
Where odd things are cooing and making strange sounds

Our love sees through eyes that tear up,
And sometimes are blinded and unable to see

Our love blooms like a flower, then hides
When the sun isn’t up, and gone are the bees

You are beautiful,
All of your outside and in,
All of your being.

Trust me on this one,
Even in your worst of days,
Beauty I’m seeing.

You are odd, and you’re oddities sprout from your eyes and your mouth
Like you wouldn’t believe
You are mysterious, and the mysteries keep coming as you talk to me
And there’s more up your sleeve.

You come off as things that you aren’t, and you’re exterior’s much different
Than the insides you bare.
You gather up your characteristics in a bag, and even I cannot untie it
Because you don’t like to share.

You have fare-welled and planned on never coming back,
And said you knew your place and mind.
You have come back so intact, and so sure that you will stay,
And tell me you’re sorry. Well, It’s fine.

You have yelled and picked apart parts of me unpickable by others,
And you’ve tied our love into knots.
You have said such sweet things and refuse you’ll ever raise your voice again
And say your tongue was just caught.

You become oblivious to obvious things and lie about it truly,
And clear your throat afterwards to confess.
You sit and sigh and groan and complain when you seem satisfied,
And you tell me I’m much more when I’m much less

You scatter out problems and lay them out flat and you promise,
That you’ll solve them. But I always do.
You forgive and say you’ll forget, but you hold it against me,
And I sit while you hold grudges and feel blue.

You croak and hold things away from me, saying you’ve said everything,
But things in your head have begun collecting dust
You seek new ways out, new roads to follow, but you don’t choose one,
You merely sit in the dew, and rust.

This all happened too abruptly.
Too quickly, (untameable)
This all happened too fast,
You’re gone (Unavailable)

Our love was a flower,
but somebody came and plucked all the petals off.

Everyone around us took one, and they passed it around with whispers.
The wind took them and shoved them in our ears,
and we ignored them.

But our love is nothing without color.

Walks by everyday,
'round the same time.
Her red coat as bright as her smile.
In her hand
a coffee, or perhaps, a cappuccino,
one she's been drinking for a while.
I envy the vibe that comes off her.
She radiates something so nice,
I automatically paste her smile to my lips.
I catch just a glimpse,
then I have to look twice.

Oh, I feel quite ill,
But you do nothing for it.
And you are the cause.

Oh, you’re disgusting,
Plainly inconsiderate,
With too many flaws.

I’ve been casting far off on my own,
I’ve been carelessly walking off the edges of the world,
Twirling, watching my dreams float around me
In the same rhythm and speed as I.

“Have you not any legs?”
“I do not”
“Have you not any arms?
“I do not”
“Have you not any eyes?”
“I do not”
“Then what do you have?”
“A heart”