Why do I put myself before a judge?
Ruin a blank slate like a smudge on a paper
Deminishing emotions that are beginning to taper
Singing songs of sorrow that borrow that double tied fishers knot in your stomach
Wishing that angler would pull out a nice catch and remove that bubble
You know your in trouble but can't help yourself out
Put your faith in others and have no doubt
Work your program shout it all out
You might not feel like a ten but keep doing it, its not the end

This is my apocalyptic demise
To your surprise with no cries just good byes
The end of my life, the surrendering to pain
I have nothing left to gain but going more insane
So in vain you will start to feel my agony
Except now I won't be there for you to blab to me
Don't rip off the scab because your the blame
Don't convince yourself you're not because that is the aim

So this is what it's like when best friends come to an end?
A empty feeling and in disarray
Disillusioned and feeling a stray
You choose to a terminal fate for us because you choose a hunk lust
What will you do when your emotions run and bust?
You will seek a new me but you will still be on cust
I won't rust but will still shine like a new dime
This time it's real, I know you know this deal
So as I seal away this chapter of blight
I hope you enjoy the night and the rest of your life

We live in a pessimistic chaotic world
This is what causes our brains to swirl
Everyone driving us insane well beyond our membrane
Struggling to find a few people to be our sugar cane
Keep us in a candy land, a land of false hopes
Eventually we need reality, a nice size *****
It may make you low but then you know it's real
Learn how to cope and eventually you can deal

You're the epitome of my psychotic depression
You won't be a forgotten memory but a lesson
As I question why I started not to care
You dare to hold on to the memories fond
However these livid memories actually break my bond
What was good for you was not my same song
So as I move along diligently
You should do the same gently
It will be better for us both
With your life, I hope you make the most

The complexity of my perplexity makes me feel like I got nobody next to me
Racing thoughts lead me to my insanity
Which is something nobody can see
The combustion of my thoughts are the only way not to feel lost
This mental breakdown how much will it cost?
There's got to be a algorithm to fix this crazy, or logarithm maybe?

This is a poem of emotions of me
Trying to set myself free
I'm not doing this for any other reason
Just to clear myself from false believin
The more I do for you, you push away
Like a cat gone a stray
I told you how I felt and you didn't respond
I tried to give you my heart but you weren't too fond
So I may pull away and let you be
I hope it's not "just friends unfortunately"
It breaks my heart to write this out
but I'm human with emotions that need to be shout
If you feel anything at all this is your last chance
I won't look back on this, not even a glance

You know i know so much about you
thats what can make things great
when was the last time you were friends before you went on a date?
stop chasing these guys that give you no respect
once you see how i do, you'll have no regrets
i love what we have right now
but i want it to grow up into the clouds
see were our happiness takes us
we can sing it out loud
let me make you smile when you are sad
help you through this world of bad
keep satan out of your reach so you feel  safe
together we will both strafe
stop fighting the feelings and let it ride
since when are you the one to not take dangers side
i wont be waiting around forever
so dont drop me by pulling the lever
the time is now and the choice is yours
come on baby just walk through the door

You're the lost beauty on a beautiful day.
Wishing it would rain to wash all the pain away.
The build up of irrational thoughts, improper behaviors no cognition at all.
Did you ever wanna die but never had the nerves to try?
Wondering maybe should i try to get by just getting high?
Falling into a wicked illusion that will eventually form a brain contusion from all the pain it will cause.
So its time to grow some ***** and man it up.
You cant have it worse then a starving third world country baby with dad or mom not there at all.
Turn to those who try to give advice, even if its wrong say its right then splice away all the bad keep the nice.