Fate is a funny thing.
We are all simply chapters in a novel that it authors.
But sometimes even fate messes up.

Minor details that are overlooked can lead to the destruction of a carefully planned out plot.
And like dominos, that tiny, seemingly insignificant push changes the course of every other character in the book.

Every moment of every day things are being added to each chapter.
People, places, events being written out.
The empty pages filled with anything thats leftover.

Or maybe not.
Maybe this is the life that was in store for us the entire time.

Like the dying leaves, these burdens fall to the ground
Bright golden fire raining down
Drifting through the wind
Soon to be buried by the all encompasing snow
Erasing away what lies beneath it

Spring is to come
A clean slate
A new beginning
There is hope that this cycle will be over
But it could never last

Like the seasons, I am forever changing
I accept sin and seek forgiveness
I grow like the tall oaks
Starting over when given the chance
But holding tight to the roots that have kept me here, grounded.

Screams that go unheard
Day in and day out
When will this end?
Every nightmare of the devil
Placed along my shoulders
Is it too late to save me?
An innocence ripped apart
Burned to ash
Broken so far beyond repair
A justice impossible to find
The cold descends upon me
I see my shattered soul lying in wait among the shadows
Where have these angels been?
They left me here, stranded
They stole from me, my hope
Hid it away just as I am from the world
Fear, riddled through my bones
Hell here on Earth
Forty four days become the longest of lifetimes
A seemingly endless eternity conquered by pain
By heartache
By blood, freshly spilled
Drowning me
Caught between the world of the living and the dead
A terrible limbo
Relief no where in sight
Please, why won't you take away this pain?
Please, why won't you save me?
R.I.P. Junko Furuta

Sometimes, I just wish that I could forget who I am
Throw away who I'm supposed to be
I want to take for granted all the little things
Let my cares fly in the wind
I want to jump off this edge
Not bothering to check what is waiting for me at the bottom
Maybe I'll make it
Maybe I just don't care
Who knows what the future has in store
Nothing in this life is concrete
Nothing can be carved in stone

I've got this pistol to my temple
Loaded with memories of you
My finger is itching towards the trigger
And you're begging me to shoot
So send me to hell
Bury me six feet underground
Fill your vacant heart with my tears of sorrow
The last I'll ever cry for you
Don't look away now
Watch the sun set in my eyes
Know that you're the reason for this
There is no easier path out
This is the only way you taught me how
With a final shuddering breath
The devil takes my soul and carries me off
Into a place
A place I want to be
Someday soon, I am sure
We will meet again
You'll join me as we dance our way
Into an eternity
From which, you can't escape

She was only fifteen
So young and so naive
He promised her love
And every word she believed
She gave it all to him
Heart, body, mind, and soul
Only to have it thrown away so carelessly
By that boy who had promised her the world

Somewhere along the line we lost ourselves to our own minds
Prisoners held hostage by our fears
Irrationalities we let control our lives
With every waking moment
Every final breath that's taken
Another piece of ourselves is wiped away
Eroded by our long since cried tears
Deep within our hearts
Don't you hear the sounds of battle?
Don't you feel this beast in your bones?
Its clawing and kicking
Tearing its way out
Boiling beneath my skin
Just dying to escape