for ... I really don't know who..

I dream of this place
Its not dark, gothic or wiccan
its pretty and colourful and above all
full of love.

you showed me this place
your believes make me believe
in the existence of love
in the existence of beauty
even in the ugliest things.

you told me
the night does not bring darkness
it brings the twinkling stars
and the moonlight
it is marked by the sensational dusk
and ended ny the loving dawn
it brings the cool dew
the time when the tired flowers sleep
you made me believe the night is beautiful.

you told me
the fire is not dangerous
it is what gives warmth
the clutching sounds
are the sounds of excitement
the sound of adventure
which make you live life to the fullest
you made me believe the fire is beautiful.

you told me
nightmares are not scary.
they are what encourage you
to do your best
to fight your fears
to forget the unwanted
and remember what is needed the most
you made me believe that nightmares are beautiful.

you told me
words are strong weapons
they can make an enemy a friend
and a friend an enemy
its like a game
the best one wins the hearts of others
you made me believe that I have beautiful words.

you told me
friendship is about trust
its like the backbone
once destroyed can never be regained
its the most precious gift
you made me believe that I am a true friend.


you make me shine
you make me want to be me
you made me love myself
you taught me how to see the world
through the eyes of those who have nothing
then you realise how precious things are
how precious people are.

your presence made me love you
your absence made me miss you

when you hide I find
when you don't say a word I understand
I read the eyes ...

I don't know what to call you
the relation has no name
and never will it.

just be with me
and I'll be with you
till we can be with each other.

well this was the most difficult to write... something I've never felt before..
its hard to pen it down...

everytime I sit back and think about it
it reminds me about the beautiful summer days,
children running here and there,
hand in hand we walked about on the cool grass
never did we look at each other,
it made it just like heaven
heaven I never saw before,
heaven for which I was ready to die,
heaven which had you and only you

I collect those pieces of hope
and together we build a dream
a dream on which we fly away from this world
to a world of our own

I collect those pieces of heart
and together we build life
life which helped me breathe you
to get me through each day alive

I collect those pieces of petals
and together we build a flower
flower which helps me find you
evertime I remember you

but
now I fall down
I can't find those pieces anymore,
the heaven disappears,
your thoughts die
the memories get hazzy
I see you moving away
but can't follow you
my feet have stopped
you hide behind the horizon

let me find you
help me be with you
now and forever...

I feel it...
I feel it deep inside me..
The touch so simmed..
So pleasant...
Just one look.. and tears come in my eyes
They hated to see him like this
They saw the awkward helpnessless present..
It can't be changed
Nothing can be..
"Why do you have to go there..
Why do you have to leave me..
Why can't you stay here close to me"
I asked him
His eyes tried to tell me
His touch tried to sooth me
But nothing could reach my ears
And nothing could I feel...
All that I saw was he was gone

He fought
He became the saviour of everyone's life
Mine too
But he died on the front
All it took was
One bullet
To just pierce through his heart
Letting out the pain..
I felt..

He fell on the ground
Left me alone with all those pleasant memories
Which were buried with him
After all this
All that I thought of was
That I was proud be in love with an army man
A man of substance.