Vacant. Empty. Twisted. Lacking.
Chills shoot though my body filling the cracks whatever is left
Let go of the Meaning of LIFE and one is lost

Worried. Angered. Freaked. Spinning.
Words jotted down upon an empty page to show giving proof to rage
Reality is no kind reminder in correction of humanness

Stupidity. Irony. Pathetic. Foolish.
These eyes have absorbed from the outside world all which is meaningless
Vibrant life left behind to retrieve if one is wise

Hope. Love. Joy. Peace.
Never take the God-given gifts taken for granted or hard ways shall teach
Throw them aside as ******* and despair will find what's left

Trash. Pathetic. Waste. Shameful.
Such trash is how I perceive some to view my vehemency
No integrity do they see in what these eyes hold scared

Purity. Integrity. Honesty. Valiancy.
Which spring from the soul and mind diluted from ones first breath in the flesh
Access to God diluted from what cannot be achieved

Sovereignty. Omniscience. Omnipresent. Agape.
Witness madness for what God has been met first hand is just in righteousness
Full of grace and mercy to those who Seek Him

Loving. Wise. Holy. Eternal.
To those Who serve Him He gives of Himself correcting those He loves
Comfort is naught promised for character is His measure  

Sanctification. Tried. True. Loyalty.
Purifying His people through teaching His ways is the foremost goal
As choice gold refined and proved accordingly

Hold me tight,
I’m free falling tonight.
Joy is the song my heart sings,
For the sake of another song ringing.
Hope, love, joy and peace
Only found together in one place.
Within the will of God.

Free falling into arms of love,
Free falling into the will of a Sovereign God.
Terror may chase me,
The past may torment me,
Freedom is all I see in front of me.
Free falling into the arms of God,
Free falling into arms named love.

Quick pace across the room
Worry spreads angry lines from eye to eye
Jaw tight, eyes intense, hands clenched
Like a lioness about to unleash furry

Heartfelt pain from times before, nonexistent
Swept by the strongest of tides, absorbed by love
Distantly follows via lines on a page, words scattered
Like a grenade, explosive, unheeded yet written

Reasons of physical tenseness are valid
A portion of life is falling to the ground
Yet life finds a strong one, as a Tulip Tree
Roots spreading deep watered by love

Breathe child rest in the unfailing arms
Concerns are known by the Maker of Heaven
For times such as this you were born
Like a flower midst a tramped battle field

Grow unmoving through storms and fear
Changing times and shaken souls you heed not
Like a house build the very foundation of the earth
Shall your soul be upon the Father’s Word

I might be a diamond in the rough
Or a panel of shattered glass
Pace yourself from getting gruff  
Or you’ll tare my lace to shreds

I’ve welcomed you into my soul
No earthy being has known me as well
When gentle you healed my wounds
Distance yourself and a knife rips my heart

I had nearly given up dreams once shared
Till new distance caused new ephanitic birth
Now I may know you not
Though able to learn to love you afresh

I beg you look upon me with trust
Remember the past with a learning eye
Do not fall back into boyhood again
I am now able to move on up or out

I have written these words after hours
Attempting to thinking outside this box
It is your call now
Adventure is summoning me to life anew

I might be a diamond in the rough
Or shards of broken glass
You can help me become whole again
If you care to lend a helping hand

What is a memory?

A touch of love
A run in the rain
While tears freely fall
Giving freedom to burdens hidden from prying eyes

A gentle breeze
A wisp pulling at hair
Pulling as if strings on a kite giving height  
Dreams anew springs hope riding upon eagle wings

A dance under stars
A glowing moon
Worship in adoration
Maker of all giving wind to sails during majestic night

A relationship
An understanding
Between two people or more
Family bound by worship of Yahweh Maker of all

I knew a boy, who became a man
Overnight it seemed, so unreal and surreal
The face became strong, actions honest and true
Words became wise, strength in his vanes
One of honor respect, integrity truth and charity

I knew a boy, who is now a man
Learned to love in purity, with God in his soul
Set sail on the harshest sea, knowing not the tide
To find a place in the world, is now his desire
Steps of surety towards a goal, a man of men

I knew a boy, who became a man
Helpful hand in times of need, a listening ear
Not taking for granted the wind, nor following its whim
Eye’s set on God, the eternal reward of His Own
Ay a man worth knowing, a man worth loving

I knew a boy, who is now a man

Rain pounding on the roof wakes one in slumber
A toss in the bed to grasp for warmth from the covers
Fire in the chest of longing fueled by memories strong
A ring hangs on the bedstead in reminder of a song

Memories of warmth sooth the fire give aid to sleep
A smile spreads across the face breathed by peace
Vacant place still in waiting to be filled by a touch
A simple remedy for the lover who is near not far

Letter’s lying on the floor from the previous day
A pen with paper waiting eagerly to send care far away
One more day with promises  for the famished heart
A love so strong with busy hands for ones kept apart

Lover across the sea or land fighting for thy country
A hand is waiting a God is guiding for desire is of His making
One in waiting for the homeward message stand by proudly
A strength unknown is aiding the wait for one cared for fondly

One though running through my mind,
One warm beat rushing through my heart,
One soft touch against my hand,
One silent prayer released from my soul,
One gentle voice reminding me I am loved.

Across the valley and hills these eyes roam
Wondering where they can next call home
You come up from behind me to stand by my side
Pointing yonder telling me it will be a wild ride

Hold me tight, don’t think of letting go
Peace has filled this vacancy in your touch
Lead me through this wilderness we roam
With God’s guidance I’ll face the rough

Joy is the song my heart sings,
For the sake of another song ringing.
Hope, love, joy and peace
Only found together in one place.
Within the will of God.

Stunning art, once a charm to behold, t'was found trashed upon the floor
The viewer wept at the scene for it was a beautiful thing
"None was like it! Such delicate elegance, perfection of craftsmanship!"
The pieces where gathered and left in a heap
To throw them away simply could not be done

The door. Shut.
An unseen visitor slips in to find the piece in a pile of dirt
"Ah ha! Now here is something I can work with and make a new!"
Quickly all shards were sought out and found
Glass replaces the crystal heap while the visitor leaves

Lock. Is turned.
The liquid crystal has gone though fire more pure then before
It bends and flows into stunning a form, cuts like diamonds appear
"Finer then the original!" exclaimed the mysterious Visitor

The room had been left vacant for several days
Doors had been left open to show the newest of arts
The master comes in to find his crystal and stands in shock
For his eyes behold the impossible

In front of the crystal was this note
*"I am the Master Artist who throws out naught
Each piece is original
Each piece is redeemed
Each piece is made new"

Where is my time spent?
I wish I spent more time alone with you
Here I am thirsty and hungry
Denying the open table you offer me

When did I choose to move away?
I don’t recall a time nor place
In your arms I found the meaning of life
Now to wither like grass in wind

How did I become so distracted?
I lived only for you and your unending love
The things that are in my way block my gaze
Your face still before me almost a memory

How could I leave my first love?
I learned to love because you loved me first
Openly given and openly shared
Now lust fills the cracks of a stone heart

Why have I depraved myself from the waters of life?
The life you give is unending forever satisfying
My soul aches to be refreshed in your springs
In you alone my mind finds strength for fulfillment  

Take me, make me, mold me I pray
To become more like you each day
Willing to be made willing
To submit to your hands
For you are the truth, the life, and the way

A snowy day
To my dismay
Till out the frosty window I glance
What I saw brought a smile to this face
A cross outlined by trees
Highlighted by snow
Beckoning me to enter in
Give thanks to the Maker of heaven and earth

Strength is over-rated,
Weakness seems to be my escape from days of old.
I wish I would just forget sometimes.
But here I am, still learning to forgive and forget-
To love and cherish;
Through the power of one who died for me.

My mind is spinning in a million directions,
I only know I have not been here before.
Avoidance has been my technique,
Then you took me by surprise.
Now I am relearning ways of life…
Yet confidant You'll catch me if I fall down tonight.

You astound me by Your sovereignty and justice,
Balanced with unsought grace and mercy.
They terrify me yet give me peace
Only because You loved me first,
Has this soul learned to love.

Learning to hold still till told “Go”
Teaching my heart to surrender before the Thrown
Wishing the plow before me had an easier row
Pressing onward for the harvest has grown

Here is the line, I stand my ground
Here is the alter, where I lay myself down
To love is to stand firm, wielding the sword  
To love is to surrender, before the crown
Only to One, do I pledge my reward
Only to One, One upon Zion’s Thrown

Everywhere one looks, our Creator’s brush has touched
A beautiful painting for the eye, a Master’s piece for the mind
If one lessens their hast, to see the wonders anew

Out a frosty window these eyes wonder
To rest upon natures own cross created in His memory
Tall and straight, brown and ruddy it stands
Outline in white of freshly fallen snow

For a moment such as this, it was meant for
To bring this heart into surrender, and awe
Reminder of Him who died for me, upon a cross such as this

Tears have fallen as stars from the sky
Destruction of human self with each meteorite
Truth prods this soul once led by a lie
Dares to question causing pain making it aright

My everything saw my error nearly to late
Suicidal thoughts are no relief nor thought of end
Mighty lies tie and bind to quick a rate yet
Sent me to thy Savior did my lover an' friend

Breaking free from chains that choked life
Running from the beach to Tower upon the Rock
Backlashes come yet I remain unmoved
Rock of Ages has become my Eternal Salvation

Written about a year ago
Published 11/27/2012 During similar emotional circumstances

The hiding of something from more than his eye
The parent’s dismay another is gaining her heart
The grievance would be theirs to find it soon taken
The difficulty being in sorrow & to be free as a lark

The parent’s suspicions of his adoration for another
The ample words of warning she hears while he’s away
The testing of dedication as if they've done this before
The strength from God His will presiding casing out fear

The first time she has given of herself to another
The prayer is for it to be his last God’s will be done
The hearts of all are centered on the calling of the Father
The desire of the lovers is to serve Him by the other’s side

The one she loves the one whose side she has walked by
The only human his heart has seen in such a way
The scales are off their eyes faults fully known
The perfectly imperfect one whose heart calls home

War has never left your veins  
Infantryman you are born to fight
Yet what is a war without just cause

Determining the course of your life
Wages the battle of God's will and destiny
Against what may seem impossible

This war as already been won, verdict given
Your heart has a home in the hands of God
Let Him join it to the purpose He created it for

Destined for a solo purpose to glorify Yahewh
Show forth His power and unfathomable mercy
And proclamation of the Gospel of Jesus the Christ

I know I've been wrong...
I know I've been forgiven.
I just don't wanna do the same all over.

This is no first criminal offense,
but I'm not getting locked up.
The law I broke is against the heart,
here I am confess'en.

Alot to ponder... alot to question.
I know one thing, I am on my knees
and peace is what I am gettin.

Who knows God's weird and beautiful ways?
I love the suspense of His journey's that lie ahead!
I have learned to be ready to let go at all costs..
Strive to strengthen the inner man of the spirit,
And love God first above all else.
For If God is the one I love,
Then it is through His unconditional love I love others,
And this heart of flesh will not get torn.
I have hurt others hearts before,
Have no intentions on doing so again.
But I can't help it when God calls me one way,
And the other refuses to let go.
Because it was not through God's love,
That they cared for me.