Growing up is never fun
More responsibilities
Living on your own
It all sounds scary
What scares me the most
Is the fact that this world is pretty messed up
There's teens doing drugs
To kidnappers thinking it's fun
I'm terrified of the idea of growing up
But I guess this is life
And I just have to accept the fact
That growing up isn't optional
It is like an oath where we swear
We can never go back

The familiar sting calms me down
From the panick that built up in my chest
In my head I know this is wrong
But there's no way to stop
It temporarily takes away the pain that will
Forever last in my soul
From the day I was born
To the day I leave this Earth
I felt like I've been to hell and back
I fall asleep and wish to never wake up
Though the next day
I am disappointed to find myself getting up
The fake smile on my face is for my friends
Because they're the only ones who understand
Life can be heaven but it can also be hell
I just wish that these flames of hell would somehow evaporate
And my life will go back to the peacefulness it was once before

Being human is a beautiful tragedy
We live, only to follow these hideous rules
They tell us to be ourselves
And they judge us
We live and laugh, knowing it will not last
We love unconditionally, in risk of our hearts shattering
We never really understand the tragedy of being human
Until we drown in all the beautiful lies.

I saw him
He saw me
He looked away
Before I could say
How sorry I was
For breaking his heart
It wasn't my choice, but I had to let him go
Because if I didnt
My mother would let me go
I love them both
But I had to choose
The woman who raised me
Or my love and my muse
I don't feel I've made the right decision
But it's too late now
I just wish I could still say sorry somehow
He's still in my heart
I hope I'm still in his
Because if I'm not
My heart will shatter into a million pieces
I hope he still knows that I love him
That it wasn't just a game
If time would just reverse
I would change what I had to say
I would tell him I love him
I would tell him he completes me
If only
Someday

There he was
Laughing, Smiling
The way he was before
I wish he still remembered
The life we both shared
As not only lovers
But best friends
Now I can only watch from a distance
Watch him live his life
But what's terrible is knowing
That the life we had before
Will live no more

Heartbreak is horrible
But I guess it's part of life
Is this what it is supposed to feel like?
Pain?
Anger?
There are so many words that I want to say
But I will save those for another day
My heart feels empty
It feels alone
Is this what heartbreak feels like?
Maybe I will never know