Our eyes were puffy while were still smiling
We walked around dazed
But we watched
We watched them live and breathe in peace
As nothing had happened
Little do they know our world had just come crashing down

"Attention Red Bank Regional, excuse the interruption,"
We held our breaths and waited for what we knew was coming
"I am saddened to announce the passing of one of our students, Riyahdna Farrow."
We all looked up at each other and time seemed to stand still
We knew it'd happened, we were the first to know
But that announcement made it all so real
Senior year and she was gone
We left that little room that reeked of our tears and memories shared
We were greeted with hugs and condolences
But none of that mattered
She was gone
No amount of hugs or "are you okays" was going to bring her back
Time went on and the condolences stopped coming, teachers asked for work to be handed in and we were expected to **** it up and move on but i didn't I couldn't
******* it I wanted her to come back
I wanted to wake up and her walk in and shout "APRIL FOOLS"
But it was September and I was still hurting
But that doesn't really seem to matter

Come to me my love
Find your way back to me my sweet
I used to fight you off
Now you've stopped coming
I want you here
I need you here
I'm not the same with out you
I'm delirious in your absence
My night-time companion
Just visit one last time
Give me a chance at peace just once more

I don't remember his face
I tried my hardest to block it out
In the black in the back of that delivery truck
I fought and I fought but I was but a mere girl
I was 12 years old
See No Child Left Behind Had come along
And everyone thought it was the best thing ever
But they didn't teach a course on how not to get *****
I didn't know
So I didn't share
I held it in and i coped the only way i knew how
Every single night I slid that blade across my skin
And the red would come
Unfailing
I couldn't count on my savior in the back of that truck
But the red
The red was unwavering
My poor poor Innocence
Lost and alone
I had no choice but to replace you with Pain
The pain that clouded my mind
And prevented me from reliving that moment when
My dear dear Innocence
Lost and afraid
I had no choice but to replace you with Liquid Courage
Nothing mattered when he was around
My sweet sweet Innocence
Gone eternally
I had no choice but to replace you with the same amount of destruction that made me loose you

Its been two years
I haven't seen your smile
But I haven't seen your tears
Two long hard years

Because of you I'm
              F
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                         G
Effortlessly and Endlessly
And when I'm through
Because of you
All that will be left is the splattered remainders of me

I've said all I had to say
But you don't seem amused
If I only knew this road had no street lights, maybe my wrong turns would lead to life
Maybe some day I'll learn
These bank pages I've burned will never ever return
But I have no regrets

I've said all I have to say
But you still seem confused
I choose this life over you
Remember?
Now all my wrong turns lead to lies
It's just to much to learn
I guess I'll die here singing my blues

Smiles turn into frowns
Bracelets turn into blades
Soda turns into *****
Love turns into hate
Laughter becomes tear drops
Boys become toys

Baseball is then all about the bases
Running past numerous faces

Friends become enemies
What was once a rose, now nothing but thorns
From energetic to tired and worn
Sponge Bob to *** tapes and ****
I love you
I want you gone
We go from 12 to 20
Now he's far more than a buddie
Hmmm, smells like teen spirit