Lips are made for kissing, she said.
But these lips have never been kissed with the love of a savior on these dark nights
Hands are made for holding, she said.
But these hands have never been held aside from the afraid little girl sitting next to her
Hearts are made for missing, she said.
But no heart has so much as missed a beat looking for her love
Promises are made to be broken
And all of the unspoken promises hurt the most when they come shattering down like broken mirrors

So I asked her
If lips were made for kissing
And hands were made for holding
And hearts were made for missing
And promises were made to be broken

Then why do harsh words spill from my lips like scalding soup onto the feet of unexpecting victims
And why do my hands make these cuts on my very own skin as if im cutting a cake that bleeds blood as red as my sins
And why does my heart lock itself into a cage as if its a prisoner in its own mind, chain itself to my soul in an inexcapable cell
Please, tell me why the promise of pure anger, pain and suffering is left inside of me with no escape. can you tell me that.

She looked at the ground and smiled
Your lips, Your hands, Your heart and Your promises
Are those of a survivor
Cherish them, for they hold beauty unbeknownst to those who have not felt pain
But still, you were made for the purposes stated above and you must believe it.

Following you up the stairs now
Yelling behind, in your ear
He's nobody, Nothing
You are never to see him again
But thats not fair
You don't see him like I do
You don't see his dreams
His ambition for doing things
He loves

Standing in your door now
YOU HEARD ME
I'll **** him
He only wants one thing and you won't be the one to let him have it
But have you seen his smile
The way he looks at me
I don't see Lust, which is all too familiar
But instead love

Fists raised now
Guess I'll have a chat with him then
DONT LEAVE THIS HOUSE
Already gone
But he did nothing wrong
A simple date turned into much more
Where did we go wrong
What did we do wrong

I'm sorry for tearing everyone apart.

I hate being in love
Because it means constant fear
They can leave
They can lie
They can get hurt
They could die
They could hate you
They can break you
Love is cruel
Its a painful fall into something inevitably soul consuming
But love is incredible
Complete and utter trust that someone can hold
A knowing, that another person NEEDS and WANTS you
So love goes both ways
But still
I Hate being in Love

The other day in therapy we talked about my fears.
She asked me why I was afraid of the dark.
At the time I didn't know, I've always been ,
But I've given it some thought and I've noticed
The dark holds untold secrets
It is something you cannot run from
When it comes, it is usually unexpected
And it envelopes you
Until you become enclosed in everything else you're afraid of
The dark holds your freedom
And refuses to return it to you
At night dark becomes powerful
Because there is no escape
No amount of light is bright enough to ***** out the dark.
The dark holds you
In an intricate web of danger and exposure to things unseen
Worst of all,
The dark holds me
And I, do not enjoy being held by things.

I honestly don't know what it means
To have someone gaze at you because they just want to
I don't know what it feels like
To have someone notice every detail about you
The phrases you love to use
How your smile starts small then grows wider
The curvature of you hips
The sounds and movements you make in your sleep
I don't know what it's like
To feel confident
To have someone backing you up
Someone to remind you who you are
Someone to remind you that you belong somewhere
All I know are these cuts on my legs
And the hurt in my heart
Because anything that's ever mattered to me
Has disappeared

Take a brick
For every time someone beat you
Break a window with each one
You'll feel better, I promise

Take a match
For every scream they threw into your ears
Burn the words into dust at your feet
You'll feel better, I promise

Take a breath
For the bubbling anger inside your soul
Count to 15
You'll feel better, I promise

Take a bandage
For every broken heart
Wrap it carefully, it will heal and
You'll feel better, I promise

Take a smile
For every sad day
Wear it always like the clothes on your back
You'll feel better, I promise

Take a secret
For every one you've kept
Lets do a trade, take mine I'll take yours
You'll feel better, I promise

Take my heart
For every time you feel unloved
Don't forget the key
Read it and cherish every last drop of love
You'll feel better, I promise

Tick tock
Goes the big clock
It's getting late, you must have forgot
Tock tick
It's so sick
Such a heavy weight, heart full of bricks