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Jasinia Alfaro Dec 2015
I have loved once far too deep
I have been lied to and used
Once in life,
I have been broken and am now just rebuilding myself back up
I never wanna go through that again.
Yet I feel like my life will forever be a mess
I hate the people in my life
I hate everything I have become

I am a lost soul
I am a lost child

Please guide me back to safety
Please help me easy my mind
Ease my soul
Make all the pain go away
Make everything disappear
Make the bad people leave
Help me.
I want to be found.

I am a lost soul
I am a lost child

I want to be found
Please come save me.
Jasinia Alfaro Nov 2015
Fear is non existent
Fear is not an emotion
It is an illusion created by the mind
It drives one insane
But just remember,
You are, who defeats fear.
Jasinia Alfaro Sep 2015
Grabs the gun,
Loads it
With one bullet
Spins the cylinder
***** the hammer
Shoot!
He lives.
He tried to end his life
He fails.
The next day he tries again
Grabs the gun
Loads it
With two bullets this time
Spins the cylinder
***** the Hammer
Shoot!
He lives.
He wonders why
Is he really that lucky?
The next day he tries it again
Grabs the gun
Loads it
Three bullets go in this time
Spins the cylinder
***** the hammer
Shoot.
Once again he lives
He sits on the edge of his bed
Wondering why he is still alive
He hates his self
He hates his life
Wishes he wouldn’t exist anymore
But why has he been so lucky?
One last time
He grabs the gun
Loads it
With only one bullet
Spins the cylinder
***** the hammer
And Shoots.
He wasn’t so lucky this time
He goes to heaven
He sits and wonders
Why did it take so long for me to die?
A voice behind him says
“It wasn’t your time.
I had greater plans for you, it was just a setback”
“I tried to save you” they said
“Now come this way and I will show you what your life
Would have been if you had lived”
He follows the voice and sees what his life would have been
He sees a woman and a child
He asks the voice behind him “is that my family?”
The voice responds “Yes, that would have been your child.”
He begins to shed a tear,
He realizes he should have quit
Now he is in heaven regretting his mistake.
This is titles "the game no one wants to play" because a lot of people do not want to keep going with life some just want the easy way out. they miss out on their future. Stay strong it will get better.
Jasinia Alfaro Sep 2015
They give us a white paper
Tell us to paint a canvas
But what do we paint?
The darkness in our hearts?
The pain in our soul?
The demons in our heads?
So I paint it black
Then splash of red
They ask why that?
I respond "you said to paint our canvas"
People start to stare,
They start to talk
They ask "why is it black?"
And say "She's Weird"
To me it is the painting of
Struggle
As I look in the black
I can see it all clear
There's a story being told.
Jasinia Alfaro Sep 2015
You make my legs shake
As you stare
In my eyes
My heartbeat,
Is out of control
The touch of your
Body so soft and warm
You make me
Imagine our life together
You're so perfect
You're so imperfect
My skies turn blue
My frowns turn smiles
My eyes lighten up
I see you walk
Through the door
And my heart skips a beat
You're so perfect
You're so imperfect
Tears running down my face
Can't breath as I cry
Yelling at you is hard
The lies you tell are so beautiful
I wanna be mad but
I love you
You're so perfect
You're so imperfect
Jasinia Alfaro Sep 2015
Thoughts about you linger in my mind.
The sound of your voice is always ringing in my ears.
The picture of you lookin into my eyes with so much love and smiling is always in my mind.
I can't bare the thought that I won't see you, hold you, and caress your body anymore  
I have tried to not think of us but how can I just lose the beautiful memories we created.
As months pass by, memories of you get stronger
I ask myself why
You still linger all in me.

— The End —