My heart is beating
I step out of rhythm
I set out to be somebody different
Time to turn the page
start again
I been waiting for this day
it seems my whole life

Feel so used
and abused
confused, bruised and battered
but I refuse
to let you go
even though it doesn't matter
you only going to break my heart.
you got me under such an evil spell
like I'm married to the devil
sending my soul straight to hell

the things that you do
when you are lying and cheating
my heart has taken such a beating
that my love is retreating
I mean come on
why you got to be so cruel
and you say you love me
but you still treat like some kind of fool
I been here shed so many tears
just to feel your body close to me
but you always seem to up and disappear
can't you tell why you always have to leave
instead of doing this to me
just release me and set my heart free

girl it seems like everyday
i struggle just to find a way
to get me through
the **** you do
watch your back
it will all come back on you
all the lies that you told
i was blind but now i see it unfold
I try so hard to make things right
sometimes feel you do this in spite
**** girl you could have worked it out
but it's over now so take a bow
i'm through with you being so untrue
the rain has stopped and the sky is blue
someday you will realize
what you had if you just
would have opened your eyes
until that day you will never know
of what true love is you let go
Now what doesn't **** me
only makes me stronger
and it's you that I conquered
hmmm......
i sometimes wonder what it's like
to be with someone else tonight
feel her body close to mine
run those nails right down my spine
whisper naughty stuff to me
make for real my fantasy
make love to me like never before
ohhh  ... end of story

It's a sad day
such a sad way
that you had to
say goodbye
as the memories play
the tears fall from my eyes
I will never see your face
I will never hear you laugh
now this cold and empty space
inside me is all I have
lord I feel so betrayed
if I only had another day
to change it all and she
would hear all the words
I need to say
I get on my knees and pray
and ask God why does it
have to be this way
It's a sad day
such a sad way
that you had to
say goodbye
It's a sad day
the rain is steady pouring
i'm drowning in despair
at times I wonder
is there really anybody up there
and if there is do you even care?
it's like I hit a brick wall
I take a step then I fall
I try to pick myself up
I fight and I claw
heading down the wrong path
all I can recall is the demons that I saw
and the nightmare of it all
Lord if you hear me
won't you steer me in the right way
help me see clearly si I live to see another day
I'm stuck in this rut
all I feel is giving up
and many times I told myself
I just don't give a F#ck
every day I struggle just to make it
through these tough times
devil got me blind with evil thoughts
messing with my mind
if cut myself or maybe just put a bullet
in my brain
send up to heaven cause I'm so tired of dealing
with all the pain
It's a sad day
such a sad way
that you had to
say goodbye
It's a sad day
Sometimes I reminisce
when I used to kiss your lips
I feel so heart sick
I drift into the memories
that I miss
when you held me
in your arms I felt so safe
and secure
but now you're gone
the curtain falls
today I took a walk
trying to clear my mind
don't want to talk about it
I just need a little time
it's like looking in the mirror
the reflection of your face
is implanted in my mind
and my soul is an empty space
I don't know where to go
where to turn
I see death and destruction
in this world all around me
nothing is gonna change
always gonna stay the same
the scars always remain
Some days
God I feel so lost
and I'm fighting with my demons
my heart is silent
but inside my head I'm screaming
It's a sad day
such a sad way
that you had to
say goodbye

Sometimes I wish
I never even would have met you, baby
you painted such an ugly picture
now I swear I'm going crazy
the drugs that you on
really got you where you hate me
its just so hard to forget
once you was my special lady
the games that you playing ,
it's not the same  my heart is aching
and you saying that you love me
but leaving my heart breaking
we don't belong even in my heart i know it's wrong
gotta get myself moving on
never  knew love could be so painful
bring tears to your eyes
that angel that you thinking of
only hurts you deep inside
every night you lie awake
nothing changed still the same
searching through your thoughts
as your heart tries to explain
all the heartache and the pain
the guiltiness and the shame
the heart break
baby can you tell me who's to blame
there used to be a time we was so in love
it was you baby doll i was thinking of
and all my troubles just fade away
never make it feel like yesterday
baby you never make it feel like yesterday...........

my link... http://youtu.be/3L6Vi-lIIKU

I'm
a
masterpiece
of
poetry
cut
myself
open
so you can
see
what's
in
my heart
and
these words and lyrics I bleed!!!!

I'm just looking
for a little love and tenderness
I surrender all that is left of my heart
Catch me baby, now I'm falling
I'm just looking
for a little love and tenderness
I surrender all that is left of my heart
Catch me baby, now I'm falling
Please don't let me go
Hold onto my heart
and just hold me in your arms
let me get lost in this moment
feel a little piece of heaven in your touch
comfort me darlin, give me your love
I'm a writer
I write the truth
and if you knew me
maybe you would understand
everything I been through
and all this **** drama in my life
is like a shadow seems to follow me
everywhere I go
and maybe , baby I'm just to nice to say no
Just so hard to say no
Just let everybody take advantage of me
get what they want
then they vanish never to be seen
nobodies there to put a bandage on my heart
or pick me up when I fall apart
Nahhh..nobodies there
Where did everybody go
Oh, I forgot you only come around
when you want something.
I'm just looking
for a little love and tenderness
I surrender all that is left of my heart
Catch me baby, now I'm falling
I'm just looking
for a little love and tenderness
I surrender all that is left of my heart
Catch me baby, now I'm falling
Please don't let me go
Hold onto my heart
and just hold me in your arms
let me get lost in this moment
feel a little piece of heaven in your touch
comfort me darlin, give to me your love
I have been down and out
kicked around ****** over
cheated so many ****** times
I lost count
I live my life in the shadow
of sorrow I have to beg ,borrow,
and steal just for a little affection
I don't ****** know but this ****
gettin old.
I have been hated by many
loved by few
My pursuit of happiness
I traded my ****** heart for
a bruise
and that's the truth
I'm a writer
I write the truth
and if you knew me
maybe you would understand
everything I been through
and all this **** drama in my life
is like a shadow seems to follow me
everywhere I go
and maybe , baby I'm just to nice to say no
Just so hard to say no
Just let everybody take advantage of me
get what they want
then they vanish never to be seen
nobodies there to put a bandage on my heart
or pick me up when I fall apart
I'm just looking
for a little love and tenderness
I surrender all that is left of my heart
Catch me baby, now I'm falling
I'm just looking
for a little love and tenderness
I surrender all that is left of my heart
Catch me baby, now I'm falling
Please don't let me go
Hold onto my heart
and just hold me in your arms
let me get lost in this moment
feel a little piece of heaven in your touch
comfort me darlin, give to me your love