Ye, other men seek me I admit
But they do not possess the fire I envision
The passion I have so desperately sought
So long life passed before my eyes
In an almost trance like state
I was frozen in time, yet the Earth still spun
These dreams grew dull
To be sure, I had almost forgotten them
You reminded me
Brought unto me an awakening
Such an amazing feeling
To recall ones dreams
And realize they can still be achieved
I feel relief wash over me in abundant waves
As I finally venture forth from my stupor
I bask in the beauty of the world
The world you inspire me to appreciate
And all I can say is thank you
Thank you for bringing me to life

I breathe in with the rain, sigh with the wind
All is wrong, the sky is white, the clouds blue
Lying in agony, for I have sinned
The color of my pain now changes hue

I beg mercy, my soul becomes blacker
My misery fades but then reoccurs
The world against the world, please just take her
No one's here for anyone, visions blur

I am no one, I am white against white
In constant pain but nowhere to turn to
I give in to my sins, I've lost my fight
Tearful eyes look 'round, the happy are few

Why do I live in a world filled with pain
What the hell's the point, there's nothing to gain

A child, oh to not understand death
whisper in the wind
feels like forever, mere fractions of moments
alas, life is not long enough
to behold every wonder the world has to offer
wishing to be a child forever
dancing in innocence
what is there to bring woe
for a child does not understand death
life blossoming eternally
never ending possibilities
oh how I envy you sweet child
never grow up
evermore let your spirit soar
please, for the sake of your humanity
do not become what the world sees
retain sweet blissful ignorance
for a child does not understand death

Oh Helena, how I doth know thy pain
Mocked is thine love when at love's feet thrown
Love hath looked upon thee with disdain
And yet still for him thy love hath grown

Do not despair Cupid's arrow at thine door does knock!
Upon thee, loves eyes an awakening will be placed
No longer can  love's spiteful eyes see thee and mock!
And to thine love will he quickly rush in haste

But first know before one is to have thy way
A comedy must first be struck upon
Alas Puck! Disaster hath struck and a game we must all play
Before order is once more restored and the past foregone

Oh no! Now a love thrown upon thee unwanted
Mockery suspected, no more of this dost thou deserve
Evermore another feeling given to thee daunted
But now sit back, let the story unfurl and observe!

Finally soft words to thee spoken so craved
At once entranced but then felt thee a fool!
From nowhere sweet words so spoken must be depraved!
And in thine heart feeling loves sting ever so cruel

Now thy dearest friend! Intertwined within such a conspiracy
Such betrayal! Dear girl know it is a mistake
Albeit twisted and buried in the cruelest irony
Thy dearest friend, thine love she does not wish to shake

Through troubles and trials thou maketh thy way to a beautiful field
Fast asleep next to the love thy value ever so
Puck, fix thy mistake, give Helena her love to finally wield
And at last house a mutual love to forever grow

I am human
Yes I judge
I do not wish to
Yes I get jealous
I find it selfish
Yes I have darkness
I find it haunting
Yes I get lonely
It happens too often
Yes I am weak
It makes me sad
Yes I love addictions
They make me feel whole
Yes I fear
It is only natural
Yes I am angry
It fuels my passion
Yes I have dreams
For I am only human

I am frightened to death of faulty hopes
I know deep down all great things are fiction
I'm too quick to trust, I fall and can't cope
It cuts my soul, until I am stricken

Why must I insist there's just good, no bad
My eyes only see the black and the white
In innocent souls all people are clad
I know it's not true, it just can't be right

I must train myself to look deeper
See the dark hateful souls that lie within
Inside all of us lies a Grim Reaper
Eyes look out so innocent, hiding the sin

I'm left clueless, what in this world is good
I saw the truth 'neath the lies, there they stood

I want to, but struggle
To write about this thing called love
Relating so much more to despair
Having felt it for so long
So used to living in loneliness

I want love
or do I?
What is it I want
So long having been a shell
That I forgot what it is to be alive

So how is it
How does one express love
Using a piece of paper
It just isn't enough
When despair falls so freely

See, very few words can express love
If any
Words are not enough for love
But despair, oh despair
How you mock me
I could speak of you for eons
Despair, so infinitely defined by any word

So again I ask
How does a poet speak of love
With so much despair outside looking in