I sleep so heavy I just might die

I’ve dreamt in colour and I don’t know why

In my dreams I’ve felt things I’ve never touched on with eyes wide

In my dreams it all came in my very own stride

Without difficulty, without intricacy, but with absolute magnificence

And innocence

Why don’t I cry for the troubles I’ve faced

Why do I live for the future you traced

Should I ask myself why I don’t give up, give in, let go, oh no

Yours truly disintegrates to nothing though

But then I wake up, make up

Take sips at dusk straight up

Gone are the days of staying up to dawn

When days now are like trying to walk through a bevy of swan

Stare at the rain, the drops on my windowpane

I don’t know if it’s all but in vain

I don’t know all of my days that will come

Only there’s still so much to overcome

Writing words for you are never good enough

At least I can’t overthink all of this ugly stuff

Anymore

Only a foreign night in other words

Can make sense of all this other worldly onward honesty

Only a hundred more days can tell me what the past will leave behind

Is it all so intertwined

In each others destiny

Oh I cannot see what will be

I can only fixate on a picture sent to see in the dark

Sent to be oh and god knows

Though I believe more in a collision of two star souls

Or an intricate link written between us far, holes

to heaven but no ones felt that golden light

Then what the others tell of sight

You may get a little lost in my streaming consciousness

And all those lines I’ve crossed

Just maybe you’ll see the fear

Enravelled in me, my open smear

Like chocolate on your face only permanent, indelible

A torrent, a wave, frozen inside

Patience adheres to me the same way

And my hands slip, wasting, waiting, once shaking for you

Yes you

I’d lie until I died

If it only meant I could be with you in the next life

And that was always my fear

Not this one, just again like the rest, pulled tight to my chest

That flight, those stars, that beach have to wait

For a longtime date

The thought doesn’t bare

And I’m sure I’ll see you there

The snow so out of the blue

There I will see you

Lay down beside me and wrap yourself around me

Place your skin over mine so we can forget what we’ve been missing

It’s been so long waiting to be kissing

Away all the trouble from your mouth

This long lasting love drought

It’s agreed I’d bleed to be with you

It’s true I’d die young if we could spend my last days as one

I’d lie, I’d die, I’d learn how to touch the sky

To fall into your arms

I’m picturing it now, but reality won’t allow

Me to wake up with you

You’re in my heart, but we’re in the dark

Still waiting for the daylight to reach its final height

I’ve given up wishing but I’m still lifting

This leather tough life

Into the palms of my hands

Watching it slip between my fingers

Like water through a sieve

Or a moment lived in lost dreams

I need to love you not one day but today

I want you to get caught up in me like sand grains in my hair

Stick to me like honey

Or flow over my body like water from the shower

Wear away my layers like rain on rock

Uncover my skin like tissue paper

The more I think about it

The closer I get to you

And the closer I get to you

The more I want you right here right now

Breathe me not with sadness but with loving longing

Forgiven pasts and a future vast

Together at last