letting go
and not looking back
because it will only
lead me off track

she slipped away
taken so slowly
and so gently
she did not even realize
that the comfort she seeked
was the darkness
seeping right back into her life

i am finally ready
to open up
and let loose
all that i have trapped within myself

getting to know You
before getting to know me
because i do not know me
without knowing You

Your love for me
will never concede

and so i must fall
deeper still
for as i am falling
i am rising toward You

running through fields of green
just You and me

dancing and laughing
completely carefree

like a never-ending stream
steady and serene
Your love flows for me

all along i was searching
for someone i could not be
trying too hard
and looking to deep

she dreams of a future
that she dare not speak
for the world around her
would persuade her to sleep

hope is not lost
look in the darkness
for you will surely find light

finding me
was all about finding Him

in the rain
in the storm
i am there
this is me

in the darkness
in the haze
i am there
this is me

I am not there yet
but I am on my way

oh restless spirit
wandering through the darkness
He is your light
you no longer have to fear it

quick as a streak of lighting
i slip
and fall

wandering through the nothingness
an empty, vast desert
silence as my only companion

words whispered in the breeze
i’ll be there for you
if you stay forever with me

alone
i am not alone
when the darkness calls my name
reaching out its hand
i am not alone
and when the sadness sets in
consuming my soul
i am not alone
when i feel alone
i am not alone

you give and you take
you slip and fade away
washed by the words
that drift and sway
begging
begging
just to stay

light dancing
in and out of view
flowing, drifting
a beautiful sign from You

i cling like a scared child
to the things that i know
because what will happen
if i let go?

yes
tomorrow is a new day
a day for inexplicable adventures and undeniable happiness
but
today is for growth
for unbearable pain and heartbreaking sadness

giving up
is one of the hardest things i could ever do
my soul
was not built for it
although born fragile
golden light has woven through the cracks
creating a solid foundation
so that when the darkness crashes in
begging me to give up
my soul alights
shining on a brilliant truth
a truth that says i was made for more
for more than just giving up