I gave you too much power,
Too much control over my life.
But only because I loved you and
I had trusted you each night.
I'd tell you all my secrets and
You'd keep them just for me.
You helped me through the troubles
And you laughed at my crazy.
We always cared for each other.
I loved life with you.
Until someone told you something,
And you thought something new.
I watched you fade away,
Slowly, but it was my choice.
I opened my lips to call you,
But you didn't hear my voice.
My world became dark,
And my nights very lonely.
I wished you would come back
"If only, if only, if only."
One day I found you again,
And I didn't notice a difference.
But you slowly started hurting me
And now I'm dreading your existence.
You won't leave me alone
And you're tearing me apart.
"Stop hurting me! This isn't fair!"
But then you just restart.
You changed and I hate it.
And I know you hate it too.
But you won't leave me alone
And there's nothing I can do.
You hurt me night after night
When no one is around.
You tell me everything is okay
And you somehow calm me down.
Your words are so convincing
As you tell me to say goodbye.
I listen as you soothe me and
I tell you "one more try."
I've hidden you for a while
But now you're stronger than ever.
I think I might let you win
Unless someone tells me better.