Jan Harak: Favorites

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Chit chat

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Liz And Lilacs

You asked me how I felt
and I'll be honest;
I feel like ****
which you didn't want to hear
But it's your own fault
For asking
What you
Didn't
Want
To.

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Guilty

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Liz And Lilacs

Guilty

"Even your own body hates you,
enough to betray your mind."

The coldest thing
I could have heard
on that day
was what you said.

It was a bad day,
A hot day
full of my burning fear
and your scorching desire.

But what you said was so cold
So cruel
So utterly and completely terrifying
and absolutely humiliating.

"Even your own body hates you,
enough to betray your mind."

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Day Dreaming

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Liz And Lilacs

Day Dreaming

Go to sleep before you dream.*
I've come to enjoy dreaming
far more than waking;
so much so, that I forget
to remember that I am awake.
Drifting mind and drifting eyes,
I swear, I want to be somewhere else.

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

I just...

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Liz And Lilacs

I just...

I hope heaven is real,
because I know you'll be happy
for the first time.
If there is a paradise,
I hope you're there.

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

So that's love

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Liz And Lilacs

So that's love

The way you say my name...
You make a single syllable
sound as if it means everything.
Three letters become three words,
my name echoes your feelings.
I love the way my name
tastes when you whisper it
into the space between our lips.

I don't know the first thing about love. I'm not one who should be writing love poems.

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Loneliness

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Liz And Lilacs

Loneliness

You smell like loneliness.
I can taste it in your
alcohol soaked breath.
I can feel it in your
lecherous hands.
You smell like loneliness
and it makes me sick.

this came out harsh

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Discoloration

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Liz And Lilacs

Discoloration

Purple and blue and black
fade to yellow and green.
Sickly marks marring
pale as moonlight skin.
There are so many bruises,
I fear that even a golden soul
has been blackened beyond healing.

I guess you didn't understand that when you hit me, it left marks that weren't just skin deep.

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Swallowed words

Apr 2015 Jan Harak

Liz And Lilacs

Swallowed words

They leave a bad taste,
Bitter on the tongue;
The words I never said.

They fluttered around,
Desperate to escape,
But I swallowed them whole.

I love you,
I hate you,
Please don't go.

I swallowed them,
but it sickened me
to keep them contained.

The ghosts of the things I never said haunt me