I love the way you tell me that I’m beautiful,
and the way you make me laugh like no one else.
I love the way you move the hair away from my eyes,
and then kiss me on my face.
I love the way when you take me to the park
and put your hands around my waist
as we watch the sunset together and feel the ocean breeze.
I love the way you'd sing to me at random moments,
and look at me and smile.
I love the way you leave the smell of your cologne on my clothes after we hug
I love the way you would send me my favorite flowers
along with an " I LOVE YOU" card.
I love the way you speak your mind and tell me about your opinions.
I love the way you're not afraid to cry and show your feelings.
I love the way you call me in the middle of the day just to say " I LOVE YOU."
and say how much you miss me.
I love the way you tell your friends about me and smile when you do.
I love the way you whisper into my ear,
the way your voice sounds so close to me.
it feels like I’m dreaming.
I love the way you do all of these and the fact that you're not ashamed to do it.
I love the way you treat me,
and I'm glad to be yours...

When I first met you
I felt like I had known you forever,
telling you my secrets
and what I didn't want ever.
you listened to me
I bet you thought I'd never end,
who would have thought
we would become more than just friends.
Over a period of time,
I got to know the real you.
A boy so caring and gentle,
with a heart so true.
You've survived your life
with hurt and loneliness by your side.
I told you I'd never leave
because of the feelings I have inside.
I know you
like no one I have ever known,
and sometimes I wonder
what I'd do if you were gone?
So I have decided
time answers all.
If it is meant to be
time will remove the wall.
I love the way we are together,
you can always make me smile.
Will it ever really be forever?
I guess I will have to wait awhile.
Time will reveal, what lies ahead
but always remember
what I have said.
Meeting you has changed my life
and I really love you so,
the feelings I feel for you
I am never letting go.
Remember me always
and I will too.
I always think of
me and you.

Free fall down into the unknown
give you my heart and relinquish my soul
it's best for what life shall bestow
so I take a big step in the unknown

Never look back, for this is the choice
don't question myself, and keep my mind poised
take a look up, thank god and rejoice
because the truth is, I know I made the right choice

So I follow the path and forget the past
this devotion and emotion, I'll make sure it lasts
with passion so wide and a love so vast
pain and sadness will be things of the past

I cry myself to sleep at night
Trying not to ask God why
I have false hope is what I've heard
Rather than that don't say a word
My faith is in God
That is where I stand
We gave her to him
She's now in his hands
How do I cope with what I am going through?
Let me ask you this, what else can I do?
I can only play the hand life deals
I just can't imagine how Angel feels
Should I give up and let her go?
As long as there's hope I say NO
Some people say It’s all meant to be
An innocent child, I don't agree
You can tell sometimes she really feels bad
But through out it all she's hardly ever sad
She has a great smile that lights up your day
For a moment or two my fears fade away
Do I wonder what life holds in store?
No..I just pray for another day more!

Fear fills me through and through,
As I lay in bed confused.
The numbness I had is leaving me,
The walls I built around me are breaking,
And slowly I'm beginning to feel- once again.
Although memories come back to me,
And the reasons why I chose this solitude,
Echo in the recess of my mind,
I fear this time it is not enough to help me escape,
The confrontations I have always avoided.
All I want to do is walk away.
Which till now has not been an incident rare.
But this once mastered art seems to have left its artist.
And thus like a traitor so much like a Brutus,
Stabbed another Ceaser in betrayal- though unfortunately not with killing intent.

Before their time I see them.
I see my cat- his furry figure white as snow,
Speckled with brown here and there- lay,
As still as the floor that holds him.
I see my dear little sister- still unsure of my disposition!
I see my mother- still decisive and calculating, but praying.
I see my father- still hoping in spite of my own lack of faith.
And I see my dear beloved cousin- still wiping away my tears and fighting away my fears,
With no more than a smile upon her lips,
Standing by me,
A silent guardian watchful.
Nursing an animal with more scars than he would care to exhibit.
All of them I see,
Their faces so white,
Their dark eyes so grey.
A sight so distant from now.
And yet I am somehow compelled to believe in its overwhelming proximity,
And wonder in despair.

Fear fills me through and through,
As I lay in bed confused.
Asking "why?"- a question answered long ago.
Still I am unwilling to stand by breathing,
As I watch them, one by one, abandoning me for an eternity.
If nothing else,
I have learned Time to be my greatest adversary.
So I humbly pray,
For Time to be my greatest teacher.

Love is so complicated
It makes me so frustrated
But when I'm with you, everything is right
And that is why; I wish to be with you tonight

I am here you are there
That's the fact I hate to bare
My love for you, I cannot describe
And if I said it can, I have lied

You are in my head, all the time.
I want that though, as I want you mine
I miss you; I love you, every minute, every day
But I guess all I have to say:

"I am sorry, I was wrong,
It has been so long,
Distance is not the antidote,
It is the opposite of what I wrote.
Distance hurts, does not heal.
I am sorry, this is how I feel"

She has you now, I understand
It's easier, I guess, you can hold her hand
I hope you're happy, as I am not
As me without you means I lose a lot

If you are happy, then so am I
Even though inside, I wish to cry
Oh how I love you so very much,
And how I wish, for one more touch

One more hug, one more kiss
These are just SOME things I will miss
You're laugh, your hair, your smile
For you, I would crawl a mile!

Fall in your eyes just once more?
And in them I will soar
We will fly and we will dance
I just wish I had taken another chance

I want to be anywhere with you
But there is nothing we can do
As you are there and I am here
This is finally loud and clear.

Painfully aware, of all my peers
The pain, the pressure, creates real fears

Trying to escape so many eyes and ears
Over thinking so much, my mind is seared

Afraid of the judgment, so my voice has no sound
Dodging harsh eyes so MY eyes find the ground

This lingering emotion, I can not define
They say mind over matter, but I say matter over mind

I'm running from something, I jump into my dream
In that happy place, I can be exactly what I seem

I finally understand what this emotion must mean
Because I figured out what I'm running from...
ME

Apologize because you've made a mistake
Eyes now open you are awake

You see the pain you know you've made
Wanting nothing more than to see it fade

Looking for that smile you forced away
Hoping above all you can get it to stay

Little by lightly feeling more of the pain
Not sure what you were doing or thought you could gain

Must go forward can't go back
But it's hard when there's something you lack

The ability to say what you know you must say
Losing yourself day by day

This can no longer wait
It's importance is too great

It is now time you realize
how you must apologize

I thought of you today but that’s nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and the day before that too
for every day good or bad you'll always be in my head
I hope you've understood everything I’ve said
this isn't just a joke or a silly lie
I’d never do anything to make you wanna cry
I’m sorry if I do something to make you really mad
it only comes back and makes me really sad
I really do love you and everything you are
I hope this relationship gets really far
I’ll never get you out I simply don't know how
in fact I’m thinking of you right about now
you’re everything I need and everything to me
you know exactly who you are and what you want to be
you always make me smile just by being there
I hope you know how much I really do care
every time I think of you my stomach seems to twist
This is why I love you, I’ve made a huge list
the list goes on forever and never will it end
neither will our relationship you'll always be my friend
not just a simple friend but a special friend at that
I want to spend my whole life with you

Big, fat Santa bounded through my halls;
He made everything shake, even the walls.

He ate all my cookies,
Drank all my milk;

He had heavy boots,
And a coat made of silk.

Over his back he carried the toys;
Some of them, a lot of them, even made noise.

He smelled like fresh, tobacco smoke;
He gave my favorite tree an irritated poke.

A grumpy look came upon his face;
This guy is crazy, and I bet he carries mace.

He reached into his bag, so I thought for gold,
But out he pulled, a big lump of coal.

With an angry look, he set it down with ease;
Then walked up to my chimney, and gave his nose a squeeze.

I'll never forget the obese man in red;
I'll hate him forever, until the day I am dead.

What do you do when you just want to cry?
What do you do when every smile becomes a LIE?
What do you do knowing he won’t be there?
You’re turning 15 and your heart turns cold and bare!
When you can’t be happy you can’t laugh anymore!
You can’t believe he broke your heart and left it sore
With flowers and balloons and a cute teddy bear,
and a little pink flower to go in your hair,
a smile on our faces and a tear in my eye!
Before his big hug out comes a sigh!
“My baby is growing up so fast!”
That’s what I wish I’d hear him say,
Another gaze into my eyes,
Baby "I LOVE YOU happy 15th birthday!!!!
What do I do when my hands start to shake?
when my heart starts to yearn for that smile on his face?
15 years of life and almost 3 with pain in my heart,
A million left to go and I don’t know where to start!!!!
So I’m lying here tonight my heart crushed and sad,
Why did you leave me feeling this bad.

Your smile makes me smile,
Your laugh makes me laugh,
Your eyes are enchanting,
You make my thoughts seem daft.

Since the day I first laid eyes on you,
My feelings had grew and grew.
In that first conversation my knees clicked and clacked,
And those butterflies flipped and flapped.

And as I spill these simple rhymes,
My mind goes over time and time,
Why didn't you ask me to dance,
During that slow song of endless romance?

I hope this doesn't seem to creepy.
Please don't think my thoughts have flown to freely.
Just know that what I speak is true,
And that I have fallen deeply for you.

I want to count the stars
But only if I am with you
I want to count the stars
And make this moment true
Remember when we were young
And all the songs that we sung
Because I do
And I know you do to
Remember when you were alone
And we walked across the stepping-stones
To a place we could call our own
And we called it our home
Remember when we would laugh and play
And we wished this day would never end
Because I do
And I know you do to
Remember when we used to name a star
Trying to see one that was far
Know we are all grown up
And all our childhood memories are locked away
But that is why we are here to stay
To make more memories
Just like our childhood memories
That would never go away

You make me feel so real
I lay awake at night thinking of you
I close my eyes and see
Only you
Do you realize what you do to me?
Why can you not understand me?
I know you like me, but why baby why
What should I do?
Listening to my heart, but it does not
know what to do
Listening to my head, but my head is too jumbled up
I like you, I do, and I need you,
But how long, tell me how long will it last?
Will we ever be friends when it is all over?
I never know when you pretend, do you
Really like me?
When it is over, will we still be forever?
Or never be close ever?

You were my best friend,
I realized I felt more,
You didn't feel,
My heart was tore.

It was a lie,
You did feel,
A great amount,
And it was real.

I must be insane,
I didn't think love did exist,
But I knew it was true,
When you made me promise to stop the scars on my wrists.

I broke it off,
A stupid mistake,
There was nothing left,
For me to take.

I asked for a second chance,
You hesitated,
I figured you thought,
I was over-rated.

But you gave it to me,
a smile I couldn't stop,
With lips as red,
As a strawberry crop.

Now I see you,
every few days,
You send me,
Into a craze.

Thank you for being the first to really love me.

I love you.

We all have a friend
Who's silver and shines
It pierces our skin
And draws the red lines

It leaves several scars
Over the years
But it lets out our screams
As well as our fears

It gives us relief
We need the sensation
But we keep it a secret
We hate the attention

Those perfect red lines
They become such a burden
But we do it anyway
Because we're tired of hurting

Some call us ******
But we know they're all wrong
They all know what to be
We don't know where we belong

We hide the scars
Under jackets and sleeves
Our loved ones don't know
The cuts stay unseen

We try to act fine
So no one'll know
But sometimes we slip
And the cracks begin to show

That's what the note said,
"please meet me here."
I wonder who will come,
Or even if he's near?

I arrive at the spot,
on a hill, by a tree.
I wonder who will come,
probably someone who likes me?

At last he comes,
my eyes pleasantly confirmed.
The one I had a crush on,
The conclusions I jumped to affirmed.

I sits next to him,
and shyly says "Hi."
He replies back, sounding just as shy.

As we watch the sun set,
Me wrapped in his arms,
I know now that she's mine,
with all his love and charms.

Our friendship was perfect,
For all those beautiful years.
I was so very happy,
Never had any tears.

Then suddenly last year,
Without even telling me,
You made major changes,
I was totally lost you see.

You couldn't see me as much.
I was just told and not asked,
You said that you loved me,
You hid behind your mask.

I was devastated,
You really hurt me.
You needed some time,
So I set you free.

I am generally fine now,
But miss what we had.
It was so very special,
Losing that makes me sad.

We still are best friends,
I know that we will always be.
Wish we could be as close again,
That would mean so much to me.

In a dark room at the top of the hill
Last summer flowers brought in from the chill
She placed them just so in a vase of pure white
In hopes they would last through a few more hard nights

With daffodils yellow and daisies bright red
Warming the nightstand beside her cold bed
There in the gloom on colorful display
Two petals had wilted much to her dismay

Stroking the softness of each fallen frond
Knowing to stem they could no longer bond
She watched one more petal float down to the floor
A tear slowly fell as she then plucked three more

Plucking the petals in lost reverie
“He loves me not but does he love me”
One for the moments they shared in delight
Two for the secrets revealed in the night

Three for the dreams and the wishes so pure
Four for reality’s hardened, cold cure
Five petals lost for the time they were wed
Six fell like tears to alight on her bed

Seven plucked petals to remind of his song
And then, just like him, all the petals were gone
There in a dark room at the top of the hill
Blown petals returned into winter’s cold chill

Shattered to pieces there's no recovery
No cure to this hurt and pain
You swallow your fears
You ignore all tears
The way of a teenage girl
starring and yelling at the mirror
crying yourself to sleep
asking why aren't i perfect?
what else could be wrong with me?
should i cut my hair, maybe dye it too?
run for miles, change my shoes?
talk differently, maybe walk differently?
if i have to i wont eat
if its needed i wont sleep
just please make him want me

it was love at first sight
and it all moved so fast
you were my boyfriend
before two weeks passed

we had the best relationship
anyone could ever hope for
we shared a love
i had never felt before

it all started so fast
the end was sudden too
and my only regret is that
i couldn't make it up to you

through our years
we shared amazing times
went amazing places
i was yours, you were mine

you inspired me and
we grew up together
over time i thought
it might last forever

but towards the end
i grew complacent
you stopped being affectionate
our communication grew distant

thats's when it all fell apart
and all i'm left with
is this broken heart

will i ever love again
a question on my mind
will i ever love another
like you in this life

if it was meant to be it'll happen
this is what i am told
but i fear i won't find another
and will die alone

will i ever love again
i really miss you now
will i ever love again
thinking about it just brings me down

i wake up at night
with sweat in my eyes
my heart starts pounding
and i begin to cry

well it's better to have loved
and i still have my memories
they'll always make me happy
and set my heart at ease

at night as i lay down to rest
somewhow i find myself
thinking of me lying on your chest

you don't even know the pain i feel
when i start to question what is real
i know you're the cause
my lust for you gnaws
its way, through my brain
and i'm here, alone standing
by myself, with tears of understanding
rolling down my cheeks

now i know my bended
heart won't be mended
by your love....
no longer will i cry
or ask for help from up above
i don't blame thee
i blame myself for my insecurities

this time i'm really confused
about what i should do
i have this fear of never being satisfied
i can't find stable happiness,
i've tried and tried
this isn't easy,
i'm the **** of my own joke
i want some affection, this is all i hope

now i know my bended
heart won't be mended
by your love....
no longer will i cry
or ask for help from up above
and i'll live my life until i die
wondering if i'll ever be satisfied
it's not easy being the **** of your own joke
i want some affection, this is all i hope

For racism in this world there should not be a place anywhere
For the crimes of one you condemn a whole race but of course there has to be some here and there
For some to be racist any excuse they will find
Since racism is born of ignorance and ignorance is blind.

On your thinking on race you seem so far from right
The windows of your soul are shaded to light
Like a malignant cancer racism does grow
Of this person's race how many do you know?

To our idea of perfection we may try to cling
But of a perfect race, there is no such a thing
Before we learned how to walk we first had to crawl
And the reaper one day will take care of us all.

Everybody is somebody's daughter or somebody's son
And you condemn a whole race for the crimes of one
All sinners are obliged to live with their shame
And for the sins of the father the son you don't blame.