You were my best friend,
I realized I felt more,
You didn't feel,
My heart was tore.

It was a lie,
You did feel,
A great amount,
And it was real.

I must be insane,
I didn't think love did exist,
But I knew it was true,
When you made me promise to stop the scars on my wrists.

I broke it off,
A stupid mistake,
There was nothing left,
For me to take.

I asked for a second chance,
You hesitated,
I figured you thought,
I was over-rated.

But you gave it to me,
a smile I couldn't stop,
With lips as red,
As a strawberry crop.

Now I see you,
every few days,
You send me,
Into a craze.

Thank you for being the first to really love me.

I love you.

We all have a friend
Who's silver and shines
It pierces our skin
And draws the red lines

It leaves several scars
Over the years
But it lets out our screams
As well as our fears

It gives us relief
We need the sensation
But we keep it a secret
We hate the attention

Those perfect red lines
They become such a burden
But we do it anyway
Because we're tired of hurting

Some call us ******
But we know they're all wrong
They all know what to be
We don't know where we belong

We hide the scars
Under jackets and sleeves
Our loved ones don't know
The cuts stay unseen

We try to act fine
So no one'll know
But sometimes we slip
And the cracks begin to show

That's what the note said,
"please meet me here."
I wonder who will come,
Or even if he's near?

I arrive at the spot,
on a hill, by a tree.
I wonder who will come,
probably someone who likes me?

At last he comes,
my eyes pleasantly confirmed.
The one I had a crush on,
The conclusions I jumped to affirmed.

I sits next to him,
and shyly says "Hi."
He replies back, sounding just as shy.

As we watch the sun set,
Me wrapped in his arms,
I know now that she's mine,
with all his love and charms.

Our friendship was perfect,
For all those beautiful years.
I was so very happy,
Never had any tears.

Then suddenly last year,
Without even telling me,
You made major changes,
I was totally lost you see.

You couldn't see me as much.
I was just told and not asked,
You said that you loved me,
You hid behind your mask.

I was devastated,
You really hurt me.
You needed some time,
So I set you free.

I am generally fine now,
But miss what we had.
It was so very special,
Losing that makes me sad.

We still are best friends,
I know that we will always be.
Wish we could be as close again,
That would mean so much to me.

In a dark room at the top of the hill
Last summer flowers brought in from the chill
She placed them just so in a vase of pure white
In hopes they would last through a few more hard nights

With daffodils yellow and daisies bright red
Warming the nightstand beside her cold bed
There in the gloom on colorful display
Two petals had wilted much to her dismay

Stroking the softness of each fallen frond
Knowing to stem they could no longer bond
She watched one more petal float down to the floor
A tear slowly fell as she then plucked three more

Plucking the petals in lost reverie
“He loves me not but does he love me”
One for the moments they shared in delight
Two for the secrets revealed in the night

Three for the dreams and the wishes so pure
Four for reality’s hardened, cold cure
Five petals lost for the time they were wed
Six fell like tears to alight on her bed

Seven plucked petals to remind of his song
And then, just like him, all the petals were gone
There in a dark room at the top of the hill
Blown petals returned into winter’s cold chill

Shattered to pieces there's no recovery
No cure to this hurt and pain
You swallow your fears
You ignore all tears
The way of a teenage girl
starring and yelling at the mirror
crying yourself to sleep
asking why aren't i perfect?
what else could be wrong with me?
should i cut my hair, maybe dye it too?
run for miles, change my shoes?
talk differently, maybe walk differently?
if i have to i wont eat
if its needed i wont sleep
just please make him want me

it was love at first sight
and it all moved so fast
you were my boyfriend
before two weeks passed

we had the best relationship
anyone could ever hope for
we shared a love
i had never felt before

it all started so fast
the end was sudden too
and my only regret is that
i couldn't make it up to you

through our years
we shared amazing times
went amazing places
i was yours, you were mine

you inspired me and
we grew up together
over time i thought
it might last forever

but towards the end
i grew complacent
you stopped being affectionate
our communication grew distant

thats's when it all fell apart
and all i'm left with
is this broken heart