I swear
I've been trying to scare you
with cigarettes and scars
since the first day you told me
that you loved my kerosine eyes
and that I had your heart.
And you haven't left my side
even when he is holding my hand.
I wish you were in his place
I know it's hard to understand.
I swear
I could spend so many nights
just talking to you about
some **** band
or whether love exists.
I guess until then
I'll sit smoking cigarettes
and you can ****** your fists.
And we will never fall in love
I swear
I swear I won't love you.
for jh