You think for a millisecond
it's a dream
that you were good
that you kept clean
that you didn't drown your depths
in drinks despair
that you didn't hold a needle to your vein
that you didn't slide a knife against your skin
that you didn't break and pull back your hair
as your stomach empties into pits unknown
that you will wake when reality once more blurs
to friends and love and silent judging whispers

Wandering quiet through the old headstones
pale light cast by the hollow moon above
sleep where creaking boughs emit minor tones
where naught but death can take away my love

Someday not yet so far away
where willows whisper in the wind
my heart you have led me astray
where shadows of the night are thinned

To treetops glittering in gold
to silver trunks of oak and yew
through pathways at a glance unfold
where scarlet skies white herons flew

From creeks where bronze fish flash and turn
There 'neath the wood you lay and drowse
my heart to you will time return
protected by the willows boughs

Who is this i see?
dark hair, green eyes
small smile, count three
short laugh, long sighs

Is this who I see?
pink lips, pale skin
sun rays, carefree
no ghosts, within

Are you who I see?
hard eyes, tense tone
strong arms, caged me
please go, all alone

I am who I see.
brave heart, daring mind
flowing river, calm sea
old life, left behind
I know I am me

I am who I see

Here where there is naught but the wind and sky
I stand enraptured under azure blue
Loathe yet to leave this sight and speak goodbye
From shadowed cliffs the starry sky I view

Its these moments I am thankful for,
these small moments that to anyone else
might seem insignificant

Theses small moments with
your head resting on my shoulder
love caressing your smile
like a gentle wind

It is these moments that I live for
these small moments that to anyone else
might seem insignificant

These small moments where
our eyes meet and
I see the same person I met
on that very first day so long ago

These small moments where
I feel your hand in mine
rough and weary but still
holding on to me like you did in the
beginning

These small moments when
I smile at our picture beside our bed
when you nestle beside me
drawing my body back into yours

These small moments when
you look at me and I know
just like I did that day
You are mine, I am yours

These small moments that
I will treasure forever
keep them locked inside a tiny box
in my heart

And I will give you the key

Dark circles like craters under paled lids sweep softly the surrounding flesh and linger from day to day, refusing to give up their hold