I'm still trying to wrap my head around
why I still can't see in full-color


where's the snow?

barely wearing sweaters
in the middle of december
florida winter became alien to me
bathing suits under flannel shirts
lawn chairs on driveways
that ******* flamingo has a santa hat
...
he is the most damaged person I know
and I all I can say is
happy holidays

last night I had the strangest dream
I think you were in it

so I learned to lucid dream

they get to eat cornbread together
we don't

I think you can understand why I'm upset about this

The ebb and flow
The Technicolor let go


I want my life back

here's a piece of me
for the world to see

I’m sleeping on raw skin
And fire behind my neck
And swollen eyes
And swollen lies
And lucid dreams melting

I’m sleeping on the prospect of open arms
and warm skin
and caffeine in the morning
so my mind can wonder
and burn itself out
and rehydrate with sleep
and put out the ever embers

But you brought me deep sleep once
And I woke up in time to send you on your way
And  to burn and scald my skin and heart
And sleep amongst the night fires