I tried to rewrite our ending too many times,
It was exhausting,
painful and eventually embarrassing.

I once thought you saw what I did,
so I forgave you for being scared.
I wanted you to just be scared.

I couldn't handle your rejection,
so I trapped myself in your purgatory,
and teary eyes fogged over the reality.

Now I see truth and I am free.
Pain... it dissipates.

own me
ruin me
tear me apart

hurt me
**** me
don't have a heart

You are my drug, my bad habit, my high
You release me and push me beyond the lines I've drawn for myself
You wreck me
Alone I mend

You are everything I wish to have
You are everything I'm afraid of
You are supposed to be the prince
You are supposed to save me
You should end this
I can't end this
I need a resolution

Let me remind you
that you are not alone
Take, take, take.

Let  me feel you
pulsating within me
Let me trick myself into thinking
this could be it
the struggle is over

You leave
and take from a different piece of me
one that sinks me
one that doesn't allow me to feel you at all
it reminds me
you were never there
you'll never let me have you

Give it to me
Take everything I know of myself
Selfish and cold

Twist clumps of my hair in your hands
Pull me closer in
Make sure I know this was a mistake
Make sure I know that you care much less

I'm your ***** little ****
I'll give you everything you want
I'd love to
Let me

Tell me I'm not good enough
Don’t tell me its you
Don’t tell me its distance

I'm the *******
I'm the vulnerable one
But I know you're vulnerable too
That’s why I come back to you

A disastrous wave swirled under me
and scooped me into its destruction
I gripped the water underneath me
but my fingers fell loose

I rode on top for the few moments allowed
exhilarated and breathless
I saw the end

I can be your bad girl
Rope you in with my eyes
Call you daddy

I can be your love
Touch your face
Pull you in
Keep you safe

I can be your savior
Make you realize what you’ve done
Show you what you want to become

I can be your housewife
Apron wrapped around me
Waiting to serve you

I can be *****
I can be passionate
I can be your good girl
I can be your little ****
I can’t be fulfilled by you
There’s never enough

Come on in
close the door
take a little piece of me
I can try to give you more

What is it I'm hanging onto?
Why is it so hard to know?
I hate myself when I pursue you,
but I just can't let you go.

I'm not the only guilty one.
You string me along the same.
You make it so easy to hate you,
and when I leave you call my name.

I can't say I ever really knew you,
sometimes I wonder if I've made you up,
but I know we don't work,
and it's time I give you up.

We have unraveled.
In a delicate and tumultuous dance
we spun around each other
avoiding what we always knew

We have finally come undone.
Here I notice,
how weak my fibers have been.