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James Thomas Jan 2014
As my last cigarette burns faster then normal
I space out
my legs shake
As if I've fell asleep i see your face it burns
like smoke in my eyes that keep me awake
And now I'm used to never sleeping,
Go to school and feel so weak from
all the milk i had to steal from
neighbors so I could eat cuz I was starving.
My bones ache from the cold feeling you left me....when you left these Roaches I call emotions crawling around my room clouding my focus
I could drown them in flowers mixed with powerful potions.
They say it wont solve all my problems but i'm just hopin
James Thomas Jan 2014
As my last cigarette burns faster then normal
I space out
my legs shake
As if I've fell asleep i see your face it burns
like smoke in my eyes that keep me awake
And now I'm used to never sleeping,
Go to school and feel so weak from
all the milk i had to steal from
neighbors so I could eat cuz I was starving.
My bones ache from the cold feeling you left me....when you left these Roaches I call emotions crawling around my room clouding my focus
I could drown them in flowers mixed with powerful potions.
They say it wont solve all my problems but i'm just hoping.
James Thomas Jan 2014
I've lost sight of this picture I once knew.
covering a hole in the wall that I
hung it to.
It was a painting of a 2-way mirror and on the other side
was you.
And in my gut I had this feeling
twisting my insides.
That you had the same picture but kept it hidden
this whole time.
And i've learned to write you letters with my eyes closed
a daily routine of which i've grown
accustomed to.
Never knowing if your eyes will see them, or keep rolling like the dice
i shoot
we played for keeps.
I hid in my room for days and weeks
waiting for your attention...but a promise you couldn't keep.
I told you I wouldn't leave, but you never came in the first place.
It hurts to not hear your voice on my worst day,
Friday the 13th, my birthday.
James Thomas Jan 2014
I've lost sight of this picture I once knew.
covering a hole in the wall that I
hung it to.
It was a painting of a 2-way mirror and on the other side
was you.
And in my gut I had this feeling
twisting my insides.
That you had the same picture but kept it hidden
this whole time.
And i've learned to write you letters with my eyes closed
a daily routine of which i've grown
accustomed to.
Never knowing if your eyes will see them, or keep rolling like the dice
i shoot
we played for keeps.
I hid in my room for days and weeks
waiting for your attention...but a promise you couldn't keep.
I told you I wouldn't leave, but you never came in the first place.
It hurts to not hear your voice on my worst day,
Friday the 13th, my birthday.
James Thomas Jan 2014
You hide behind your family name like a magician on the other side of a curtain ready to perform your final trick and none of us had seen what was coming but i heard it in every whisper and every corner of your room it echoed like an empty stadium, no fans to bear witness to your tragedy and no coaches to help you through it. so why did you do it? You never sought out attention just recognition for your contributions to the "team" or to "society" the snake that wrapped around you like the chains that held me from saving you from yourself.
James Thomas Feb 2014
how can I sleep in this house when my mind is running over the speed limit
lifes a game of chicken and my brakes have been cut, now im stuck in this vortex kinesis
the sight of you makes me dizzy,
the thought of you makes me anxious,
and the sound of your voice could very well **** me.
James Thomas Feb 2014
I have these lucid dreams
of you that seem
to make me think
that theres a chance
for you and me,
I take a drink,
im scared to glance
in your direction
like a band, we're all fans of your affection
yet you stand above us all as we wave flags of our surrender
James Thomas Mar 2014
Look at me baby I'm crying I'm shaking
I'm losing my mind like your losing your patience
I'm too high to do what we do in
my basement, I said it, I'll say it again I cant take it!
You wanna hang but i'm too sick, insane,
and depressed to lock lips in the back of your Buick,
but please understand I'm a man not a new ****

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