No messages subtly converge
On my digital glass platter
No hope or soothing words
Just links to tied rope
Or confusing herds

I lose my grip
In a costly process
That will always damage
Consume and ravage
Frosty truths
Of acts by a mindless savage

I'm Deleted but I'm not yet depleted
Listen to my conversation getting rare ****** heated
About a strong relation being defeated
Writing line in paper sheets pleated
Its conceited

One bar for my old man my pa
Two far I pushed my luck too far
Shared knowledge was the key
His knowledge wasn't free
But was most  definitely biological to me
I
Ye
Chat to me about settin it free
When factually you couldn't get on ya feet
Actually you admittin defeat
About ya life that's always set on repeat
Well get up man it won't mend its self
And I'm on the roll in upon blending the milks
I dug this hole and that I'm lining with pelts and I can see the distant vision like I'm hunting for elks

Got bars for days till the sunshine rays penetrate the depression and eradicated the
Obsession
Cursed with a blessing
Rehearsed what I'm guessing
10 years went by I haven't learnt a single lesson

my life kept going, I had all necessary
But I had nothing
I was a slave to myself
But I didn't know who i was

And it went on for so long
It became so ingrained
I can't find my way home;
I never had one

I long to feel happiness;
And it came in bursts
So intense that anything else felt low
I was better to stay down

Don't rise your head boy
Don't dream those wild dreams
You can't reach them
Time is running out

Love has shattered the fragile glass pieces of my heart
A catastrophe that will leave it bleeding until I rest

But still I want to be loved
When I know it will be pain that I feel
Just for those few moments of elation
I'll risk it all

A shock to my emotions
A motor action that leaves me feeling broken
The fresh ache of troubled times in the past
Rising it's ugly head to remind me
You should be alone in this world

Your ******* pathetic
You cry
You weep
Your fickle
So greedy for recognition that you end up alone in its pursuit
But your too weak to achieve anything
It's a bleak path ahead
Maybe I should be done dead
Maybe I should run when I tread
But my guts are filled with lead

Poison
The only escape
Intoxicate
Feel chemically induced happiness
It's the only type you know
Vacate the twisting hell below

Come back I would scream in my mind
But I'm still here
Feeling severe
Feeling no fear of death
But the world is so beautiful
It's the curiosity that keeps me alive

And yea it might rain on the plain
But pain is my main
Like direct rain to the brain
Shame

I used to be so bright
Brimming with potential
Now there is no light
Demented alllways mental

Now I'm just a mindless scout
Trying to sniff sensuous out
Try to find out what I was meant to be about
Now I'm just shouting it out

And like my tenth year my tenth bout
I haven't learnt anything apart from what emptiness is about.
I haven't deserved anything that I've done nothing about
I haven't felt perturbed to find what the depth of my love is about

**** it I'd spray
Careless disarray
I cared more than you could know more than words could say

Let them know about it, help them grown around it
Nah **** that I just keep it in
Force that smile, push that grin
Be the underdog
You'll show them how to win
Been that underdog and now man wants in
Seen the city smog now the air grows thin
Cutting through the fog erase that sin
You gotta change to win

Change is hard
Daily grind is already feeling ****** heavy
Could do without the extra strain
Chat to me but no you dont really get me
Go against the grain

Adhered to a connection
Revered resurrection
Of a love so deep
So strong I can't even sleep
Life without it is so weak
So bleak
No other person with which I speak
No other person lifting my heart to the peak
The paramount
The sublime
Like a flawless design
Before lawless and benign
Now a chorus of hearts refined
She frayed me
She made me
My betrayal rushes through me daily
And when I failed there was no one to save me
And by all impossibility
She maintains her warm prosperity
To linger with a morosoph boy such as me
A licifugous ******
Locked in a bind
No light I let in
I remained blind
Now the light has caressed the unblessed
Wrong and right was no longer a mess but it was undressed
For all to see. Even me
She has set me free
And now it's all lights that I see

Cathartic condition
Far from bliss
A foolish decision
Clearly a miss
Soulless revision
No shelter in this
Into remission
Into the abyss

A clip full of kisses
loaded
She shot me down
Like an animal
goaded
I hit the ground

And on my venture
Herds and flocks of birds in frocks
Fathom long legs in knee high socks
No longer I contain or diverge the rocks
From bieng coloured and framed by burbon stocks.