The flutter and motion of my been nervous
Do my beating chambers a heavenly service
I  have the greatest of hopes and dreams for our possibilities
Together their shall be no ends to our abilities

You hold my every waking thoughts leaving a fixed grin
Longing for you puts my whole body in a spin
Just one second with you feels like a year
Yet you have my heart rushing into a blur

The forever thats us is the greatest of budding stories
A single one of your smiles fills my soul with a loving glory
With you I know all my fears are no more as you'll get me through
All the beauty on the earth reminds me of only you

You make all that is dark about my soul seem no longer complex
You're all i want and need from the mystery that is the female ***
I feel the blossoming of our infinite starting to burn bright
Now I've got you my life shall forever be a delight

so lonely are my nights
lonely are my few short days
lonely as I stand
lonely are them clouds

so lonely that the tears fall
lonely in my dark silence
lonely as the cold steel acts
lonely are my cuts and scars

so lonely in this life
lonely in a crevices of darkness
lonely are my cries of pain
lonely is this cold pit  

lonely oh so lonely
that I beg the homely kiss of death to strike

These longing days of my deadly worries
Smash together as if a hammer bringing me to my knees  
So scared of my eyelids drawing closed for fear of death
Makes this tormented soul shiver like i'm about to have the last big gasps of breath

The only restful break from the relentless crashing of waves of hate
Are the strikes of bitter metal bring up a hurtful debate
The dripping of my glowing crimson is peaceful
Brings my dark self to the thought lets make the rope be lethal

My short life told in a format of millions of self painted scars
Yet my last vision in this life is of you in the stars

The words that shape liquid flood from ducts
Yet this lonely just shouts and conducts
That aggressive fear of self imploding hate
Maybe these forming shapes are my fate

My truth of hate and self inflicting harm
Are just scaring my hidden charm
No amount of hours reflecting shall wash them tears
Why do i no longer understand my fears    

I beg for it to end and disappear of good
So why is it death is my only likelihood
That taste of my crimson filling my guilt
I wait for someone to have my heart rebuilt

as them massed letter of yours gather
oh how much i wish they were like before not filled with a hateful lather
the removing of your reminders from the grey wall
brings that freedom to perform acts with release my crimson as if part of winter fall

this self loathing pain in my bleak chamber of dark regret
i know im losing your love as if it was a bet
all because i suffer alone in the bleeding rain
while you have loyal friends who make you feel no pain

yet my dark thoughts turn to the ending play
foreclosing all like a short miserable winters day

As my soul watches that ticking clock,
I see visions of your pure beauty hit like a charing shock.
These eyelids on mine fall down into rest,
I'm bough to majestic dreams in my head been against your chest.

I hang still in the air as I wait for your happy words,
oh how they mass as the if the gods inked them into herds.
These forming letters I conjure up for you run so true,
this we feel is for both long-overdue.

The wanting and needing to press my fragile lips to yours,
I digest thoughts of placing my fingers over your heavenly contours.
My hopes for us are pure as two white doves,
lets both imagine this shall be someday that purest of loves.

You felt as if you'd be the last one
Yet by that traumatic act that was undone
I hate but yet still have burning feelings for you
This is making my moods all turn a nasty shade of blue

The anger I hold turns inward on to my heart
All this is peeling my flesh apart
Rattling my thoughts to dangling from rope
All as I truly cant cope

After all your words of passion and love
They rot as you run heated metal from above
I know we cant go back after your pathetic act
But you said we'd stay intact

The untold truths of my hurting mind burst out as lines on skin
why is the destroying of myself is my one escape
oh how i wish these were just the imaginings of a old has been
however thats not the case here as my minds bend all out of shape

my internal screams long to have freedom of the air waves
the sprints my devastating thoughts are an ever growing force
after all my soul wishes it was just one of the many visible graves
yet these expanding lines of my deadly summanings so no remorse

burning am i and all that runs in my system for the final breath
scraping and digging at my flesh i burst with a vision
i'm at my point of entering the gates of death
oh this is my very final decision

A great wave of pain and love sweep my mind
with thoughts of you comes a crushing pain in my hate of all mankind
streams of liquid crimson flow now
with blades scraping the skin as if a field been set to plow

in a rush of joy your face leaps out of view
yet your taste lingers like a crisp morning dew
darker grows my punished lost soul
knowing it shan't be long till i lose self-control

i'd have you back but has enough gone past
all hate that has gone as our love shall be the one to out last
so why can't you face me and talk
why did we have to fight and take that charging walk