What is wrong with me?
Why can't I just do something right for once?
What did I do to mess up this badly?
Im sorry.

It has been a while
Since we talked
And even though
I seem happy
Im not.
I can't see why
Why you did it
Why you left
Why you stopped
Why?!
I am just so confused
So heartbroken
By the loneliness
Of not having you

The sharpness of a reality in which we live is overwhelming.  I feel the pain, the sorrow.  The beating hearts of those I love run away. they are fearful to my knowledge and the hurt I carry with me. Don't they know I alone can bear these burdens? Because even a small trickle of these things I understand would crush the strongest of them

Take from the empty passage of time and you see the fake, the liars, the broken hearted. Can you truly ever understand a millennia of facts broken down to nothing but words. I see it all, the people, the world all passing and all happy. They are the liars. The humans who pretend. The fake and the wicked will cease to exist as will the rest of us but it is those who are real who live our lives for a meaning and purpose that will take something from this measly existence

A single minute
A single hour
They pass by like a wind
I can't help but want you more in the end
By the time you realize exactly how I feel
Death might come and take you away
There is never a true definition of love
But what I feel for you is stronger than anything anyone could possibly think up

I wish to be hers forever
To fix her broken heart

I wish to make her whole
To help her be happy

How much does it take?
To fill the void of sadness

What will I do if I cannot be hers
Because all I think about is her

I know it cannot be forgotten but I want it gone... I want the pain to leave this body. Is it too much to ask to get the truth? All I want is her and I can't ever have her because she is the whispering sadness I feel constantly. If it could only be simple to just tell her and she would say yes. No matter what she will stay with me but I know she doesnt feel the same about me.

Fear is a complete lie there is no fear but the reality we make for our selves good and bad. Its the sunken sadness in our eyes, the many beliefs we choose to contemplate through the time we are alive. I choose not to fear and in return I feel so much more pain... but not the physical pain you think of when you break a bone or scrape your knee. I feel the heartbreak of thousands. The temporary happiness of all. There is no description for what I feel but I shall be the one to endure through all the times of my life and all others.

You spend your adolescent years studying and taking school way to seriously only to find out that life ***** you over and your completely unprepared for the times ahead unless you have trained for a real life. When you finally get out and you have the job you wanted, you find that it is more boring than you realize.  You spend another few years "power leveling" for a job that you thought was cool and your stuck in this oblivious cycle thinking that you will finally get what you want then BOOM your old, you can't do  anything with your life anymore... for the few that end up happy I wish you the best...
                              life is cruel

I want to be hers more than anything, to feel the soft caress of hers lips over mine. She doesnt know how I feel but I hope that one day it will all work out. in the end I will be her white knight... but I know the difference between fantasy and reality. The unknown scares me when it comes to her. I get up everyday scared she will be gone and I will never see her again. I only fear her for a reason I can't acknowledge.... I love her and she doesn't

How many take the chance to feed their inner demon
How many Care enough at the end of the day
What will you choose tomorrow and the next day
Because only you can change your life for the better
Only you
Feeling past regrets only make you question yourself
The past is the past but you have the future
and no matter what you have A future.