Dear you,

I have so many questions I want to ask you but I don’t know how. I am writing you this letter because I know that my voice would break and tears would start streaming down my face if I were to ask you in person. Furthermore, I don’t think that you would even listen to me, lately you seem to be ignoring me as if I’m your worst enemy.

How? That would be my first question.
 How was it so easy for you to go? To just leave me and not even look back.
 Why? Why would you leave and why would you leave the way you did? No explanation. No real goodbye. Nothing.
 Was what we had real? Was what I felt real? Because I’ve been dreaming so much about you lately that it seems like I can’t tell what’s real and what’s not anymore.

Love, I wish you didn’t shatter my heart. I wish you didn’t make all these promises just to break them. I wish that you could have been honest with me from the beginning. Honest about your intentions and your feelings for me.

The last time we were standing in front of each other, looking into your blue eyes made my knees go weak and my heart go crazy. How can someone feel so much and the other just not? I guess I’ll never know because i tend to give people all of me. Always. With you it was no different. I gave you all of me, made you my favourite person in this ****** world and hoped that I would be your favourite too.

I loved you then and I still love you now, but it doesn't matter anymore.

1
I spoke to you yesterday. Did you hear me? I was crying and yelling at you for leaving me. I wish you could have heard me. I wish you could come back.

Maybe it was just the alcohol talking, but I still meant every word. I do hate you for leaving me. I do love you. I do miss you. I wish you never left, we could have been so happy together.

#2
Danny, things are bad again. I wish you were here, you made everything better.
You were my strength and my salvation.

#3
It’s been almost five years since you left, why did you go?
Please come back. I’m not sure how to cope without you, I’m so lost. Everything is a blur.

#4
I’ve been thinking a lot about you lately, about the colour of your eyes, the way your lips form around a word.

#5
Five years. Five years without you. I miss you everyday, please return to me. Everything was so much better when you were here, but you’re gone and everything is falling apart.

#6
Loving you made me the happiest, losing you made me the saddest. When I lost you, my whole world crashed around me. My soul shattered and my heart crumbled. I still haven’t been able to repair the damage caused by your absence.

#7
I miss you more and more with each passing day. You are always on my mind, I want you to come back. I want you here. When you left, you took my happiness with you and you left me with this heavy feeling of loss.

#8
It’s 12:43 am and I am wide awake. I am thinking of you, about the way you used to touch me, how you held me. It was always so peaceful and so calm.

#9
You are on my mind again, you have been for a while now. I miss you more than ever and all I want is to feel your skin on mine, I need you to know that I love you. My heart aches for you, your absence is a wound that will never heal.

#10
I haven’t wrote to you in eight months, I’m sorry this is so overdue. It’s coming up to six years since you left me, since you left the world and I’m not coping well. I wish you were here to hold my hand and tell me things will be alright. I pray you are watching over me.

#11
Tomorrow it will be the sixth year since you left this world. I have been writing this for over a year and nothing has gotten any easier. Time passes, days go by, but the hole in my heart still remains.

I think it’s time I say goodbye, but I’m not sure how. Maybe this will be my goodbye letter to you.