Women's insecurities
can lead women
to do many
dramatic changes,
wether being good
or
bad changes,
but it always lead
to dramatic
changes.

Now,
it's always the feeling
of depression,
of wanting
self-body modifications
that lead women
to go
under the needle.

And sure,
there's absolutely nothing
wrong with doing
some
modifications
in one-self,
but that could also lead
to
an addiction;
no different than
smoking or drinking.

But there's always that void
that women
just want to fix
in order for them
to finally be pleased
when
a man is not
complimenting
their
beautiful imperfections.

I think of myself
as a selfish person
at this moment.

I wish I still had
what I had,
but then I know for a fact
that it would not be
what I would want to keep.

You can say that
I'm still stuck
in the past,
but at the same time
I want to be
living in the future.

Living in the present
is something
I just find
so difficult.