plaster on that medicated smile
put everyone at ease
because my job is to please
everyone else but myself
their goal is to tame the sickened mind
contradictory though
the silent truth I do know
actions do speak loud
trust no one and love a chosen few
for them I stay alive
and fight my tumultuous mind
a medicated smile time after time

Crash         my bed tonight
tears-swelling in my eyes
I should have known

I should have known
not           let my heart get the best of me

I lied to it
Now it       breaks

Shatters into a million.      little.      pieces.

Falling to my floor
I will leave them there(forever)

Last time
was the Last Time I will fix myself up again

My mind        deceiving
playing games
just like the man who assisted        my heart’s suicide

But he is not to  blame.
it is MY foolish mind
for he doesn’t know
how I feel

And he never will.

No one ever will.

What do you see in me that’s not good enough
What does she have that makes her right




And to think
this was the worst heartbreak of them all…

Don't let those serenades

Leave you in a carefree reverie

Though the sound so sweet

It's a deceiver's simple melody

Swooned by devious motives

Your mind lacking common reason

Though the motives are mendacious

Your trust sees no treason

The warning signs are prolific

Appearing right before your eyes

Listen before your tears fall down

Like cruel raindrops from the skies

Lightning, thunder, Boom!
Flashes before your eyes.
Positive and negative charges attract.
Static electricity rushes
upwards
No turning back.
A chemistry of heat
and light.
Everything so bright.
Gone.
Gone in an instant.