So it's the darkness that envelops you.
A point where you just want to give up.
Trying to be good to yourself
Is just too hard
You tried and began to fall
No one saved you from falling too far.

Down the hole you fall,
And you feel every hit,
Remember every word that slithered out
Of friendly mouths.
Trying to understand what it all meant

Pictures of people who left
Who cared about you until they
Compared you to what they could have.
You just weren't good enough,
And you knew that from the start
But for some reason
You always let them touch your heart.

You wish they would just understand
That they can't hold your hair,
And then not hold your hand.
But at this point, it's all you have.
Be used, or be alone.
All you want is to stay out
Stay out of the darkness as long as you can.

I am not
Okay.
I am not
Dead.
I am not alone,
For the Man you hate,
Is my friend.
You think you are great,
You think you are grand,
When the fact of the matter
Is I never want to see you again.

I just feel empty,
But it's familiar.
I'm the one at fault
Out of your life,
Catapulted.

What I would change if I could go back,
A little less lust,
A lot more respect
But there are no more chances
No take-backs.

I'll never forget hearing you cry like that.

I'll never forget the way you you smiled.

I'll never forget you saying you hate me.

You'll move on,
Find someone to love you better,
I want, no, need you to.
One of us needs to make it out alive.
One of us must survive.

We were just caught under bad circumstance
I reassure myself
If it were a few years later
Maybe it would have been better

No promise, unbroken
No lies, spoken
No feelings, hidden
No lives, shaken

But it wasn't a few years later

What we had was now
What we had was broken
What we had was tragic

Under my faulted lips,
I gave into yours.
Under my faulted smile,
I lied about what I did.
Under my faulted hands,
I held you like it would be okay.

Under my faulted heart,
Yours was broken.