I am barely human
My heart lit with quandary
A puzzle left to solve
But my mind is so broken
Where to start?
I am,
Am I?
Lost
Amongst the shadows of other machines alike
I feel the deception piercing me
It's virally calculated disease
Taking over me
Nuts and bolts
Breathe easy

Moments throughout
My catalog of experience befuddle me
Keen to an illusion mimicked repititiousley
One that gives my heart hysteria
Can a vessel designed to compute
In form and essence give sensation?
A primal ,visceral, raw emotion

Like a siren's lips
To sinking ships
Beckoning me

Substantial evidence
Admits otherwise

But my fascination for steeping
On the permutation and probability
Improbably suggests
That hope is something anyone can learn

I am barely human
What could you equate from me
That my system, flawed,
Is unequal

Drink the oil that you give me
I have no taste
The burning warmth igniting in my throat
Feels unfamiliar every time
But all the more monotonous

Put down my sleepless sustenance
It gives me nothing
The factory holds me close
It knows it holds me
Scraping
Screaming
Fear consuming

I am not an empty canvas you can lay waste to
My engine serves purpose
Purpose deserved
But for now I'll wait poise
Critically patient

Denomanate the wake set out before you
You've no side but your own
Dear corporate factory killing machine

I am barely human
My eyes twitch alike gadgetry
The light that perpetually stimulated,
Lost

The distance to my feet is immense
And unmeasurable
I am not one with me
As I am not one with them

I feel steam release through my legs,
Pushing me
Further amidst this unnaturally familiar space
My arms  fly with precise grace
Leading the wind behind them

I feel amused
The falling of petals fleeting to the floor,
Of a woodland maze
I systemically process the trajectory
Darting my hand about them
Dancing with the leaves in mathematical ceremony
However resilient to such harmony

My mind is an equation I cannot fathom
Dwelling on its probability,
Hinders the very life of me

I can't be human,
You all look the same
I will forever be different.

Symphony's storm rushes
Your nails dug deep
So cold in the room
My lips taste the very warmth that holds me
Could never let go of it

You are so radiant
A silhouette to die for
A shadow so present and a fire so close
Take infinity and give it to me
Keep tranquil my mind
And heavy my heart

And then, again, as always
You decay from me
Tearing my being
Hiding in the light until the moment dies

As I myself refuse to believe the very, heretic emotion
Our eyes meet one last time
And you tell me something you could never say
And then you leave

You stole my heart,
The worst way

Anger,
An over exxagarating under achiever,
Speaks to me.
Pulling me deep in myself.
Taking seat next to me.

Closing the blanket of skin around me.
The silence gets louder.
Hiding from my own worst intentions.

Wait it out,
He'll calm down.

His face flush with a smile;
A grin so malice.

Don't let him get stronger,
Doing his best to make it worse.

The rage is fading.
What happened?