Do you remember it like I do?
All the way back to the first time I met you -
Who is that girl across the party?
And what can I do to get her to talk to me?

I approach and say "hi", and that's how we began the night.
Fast-forward to the end as we said "goodbye".
You turn to leave from my arms
And turn back to give me a quick kiss.
From that night on I was lost.

Jump ahead a few weeks in time,
And you, my love, you had become mine,
You and those Bright Eyes.
Never in my life had I felt so alive
As I did during my time with you.

Bring sweet summer's sorrow,
When I had to part from you,
But it came with this pain,
And I began to realize that I couldn't bear to be without you,
That I began to realize that -
                    I Love You

I loved you with the airy, silken touches of Heaven,
And I love you with the seven fiery passions of Hell.
Soft and gentle like the wind;
Reckless and the raging of my devils within,
And I love you still.

How could I not with all we've been?
How we grew to know each other?
In the end all that matters
Is that I look back and smile at you,
Thinking of the happiness we shared together.

The world outside -
A bright summer's day,
But what hides behind those words
Is dark gray reality.

I watch and learn with every word,
And I see what it means
To truly be and to live.
I begin to want to live to be -
If nothing else - I want to be
Good enough for you.

You make me want to be better
That's what is said,
That's all there is to be said.

Despite my words and wantonness,
And despite what I might not have,
I can be all that you need,
And with your guidance and your help,
I can make the most of you,
And in return, you can make something more of me.

I see you and the inner opportunity,
I see you and I see the best of me,
I see your eyes and I see your heart,
I see everything in and of you,
And it makes me want to be more.

Don't try to change me,
Don't try to sway me,
Because this is who I am,
And if you do love this,
Then cool your heels or
You might have to move on
And onto the next version.

Let me be who I am,
Let me live what makes me happy,
And you can join and be,
You can be the best of me.

Or you can fight and scratch it,
Battle it with every tooth and nail,
And when its all boiled down,
You're left as a footnote,
As a line in a song.

You decide which you want:
That white picket fence,
The house with a two-car garage
(read: a bitter husband
living a life he doesn't love
because he followed the wife
he truly does),

Or do you want to be
With me as a man so happy
As he lives dollar to dollar,
One that couldn't be happier
Living a life full of love?

So live with me, or please do not,
Because if you try to change me,
I'll never be what you want.

Days and days and months at a time go by and
I still feel how destroyed you left me inside.
Feeling that empty space and that missing, that lack,
It falls to reason that I see myself as all alone,
And my fears built up by you keep me from finding another.
Leaving that space open and obvious by my side
Each and every moment like this is a bad day.

But then I stop and think of everyone who is there for me.
In them I see my value and the love for me,
And though you broke nearly everything inside of me,
I am getting better, fixing my life, piece by piece,
And one day I will be whole again
In ways that you will never be.

So if I ever see you, I will be able to smile,
To know that you were the worst of me,
And that I made it past and have continued to grow -
That despite your best efforts I've left you in my past,
Where my only thoughts for you are of hope;
That one day you decide to get help,
That you shape your life up,
And that you find someone to take care of you
As you reciprocate their feelings.
And maybe one day you will see,
And begin to live like a human being.

Where is this Muse, this Lady Love,
Who insists that we need more time?

But how much more time can I really spend
Sitting around and waiting by her side as life
Goes right on by as I bide the seconds of mine?

What more can she ask for that I haven't given?

What more could she ask for that I wouldn't give?

The more I see her, the more disaster it becomes.
It's become time for me to get past her,
Time to leave her gone and away,
Time for me to live in the Love and Laughter -
To get away from this torture and pain.

The time's come for my turn at love,
And time's gone by for living this lie.

Open your mind and open your eyes
And maybe you will see what you are missing.

Expand you thoughts and watch
Your horizons stretch beyond thought to imagination,
Giving you access to everything you want.

But you could never encompass those thoughts
Because they weren't the typical, normal wants.

Open your door, opportunity is on the step.
Let it in and watch it ignite your world,
Burning away the drear and monotony,
And that's where you will find me.

Deep inside of this inferno transformation
There is no time for you to get complacent.
You're on the edge of your metamorphosis,
This evolution revolution waged inside.

Let it out into the air.

Find what you want,
Embrace that thought,
Think hard enough and I'll appear,
Showing you the lack of reason
To fear the instilled conformity.

Drilling deep to your core to clear
The debris and degrading thoughts,
Again and again to prevent you getting lost,
And in time you will see

Me.

I know you're moving on
To bigger and better places,
To new beginnings and new people
With new minds and new faces.
Dr. Seuss famously once said,
"Oh the places you will go",
And oh that I do know.

It's a big, frightening, scary,
Beautiful, wondrous, exciting world out there
With all its bright sights and lights
And sounds resounding in the air.
Definitely be wary but
No need to be overly worried.
We've all got to make the jump
At some time or at some certain point,
And every one of us has to make it
Each in our own individual way.

So don't be afraid
That you could be doing it wrong,
It's not worth the worry because
Really
               Life Isn't That Long.

Get on board and go with the flow,
Or pick your direction and go
And see where the beating of your drum takes you.
The beauty in the journey is that you never truly know
Where those winds and whims will blow you.