I lie awake drunk off the dreams of the nostalgic.
I lie awake disgusted off the dreams of my youthfulness.
I lie awake depressed off the dreams of my happiness.

I pray to God I fix my wrong doings, I fix the ******, i fix myself.

The past... ruined me and the one I care about. ******* missed those times in my care.

I ruined myself, my friendships, my love interest. I ruined them and j ruined myself.

I want to reach out... but I know they deserve better.

His mind poison to others
His mind gave him life
His mind scares the family
His mind gave him peace
His body harsh to onlookers
His body gave him armor
His body littered with cuts, rips, nicks, and scars
His body the canvas in which he paints memories and feelings
His life a challenge that must be faced everyday
His life will get better... all it takes is love

The wasteland at my feet
The end at my finger tips
I walk The Divide
To breath life in it once again