You are the breath of song
that laughs in my ear
That dissapears when I turn around
Evaporating around my fingers like smoke
falling to the ground like sand
and vanishing in the wind you came with

You are the echo of a heartbeat
that just before I fall asleep
resounds in my ears and in my soul
That turns into the gentle ticking of my clock
when I listen too hard to find you

You are the warm skin I feel on mine
when I first wake up
When arms can still exist around me
because my dreams haven't yet left
For they are chased away by mornings light

You are the smile in the mirror behind my reflection
The one I turn to face
to embrace
The one that is never there

You are the feel of a kiss
hot and real against my lips
The feel of goodmorning
and goodnight
and goodbye

You are the memory of a lover
You are the one I will never forget

You are the reason my eyes rain with the thunder
because you always danced outside in a storm

You are the gentle caress I feel on my face
when my tears are wiped away
and the wind whispers to me
"I will always love you"
In perfect imitation of your voice

I am a blank canvas

I am black lines

And Empty curves

Sloping

And

Swirling to form beauty

I am erased and drained

Let out of memories

Groggy from finding catharsis

In the rain


I am imperfect

Tears

And tears

On and in the blankness

In the blackness


The lines are shaky where they meet


I have no end

And no beginning

Only a forever route of lines to follow

And curves to trace with brushes

Or maybe hands


You are an artist

With an imagination

Creativity that flows

And knows

No bounds


You have the rainbow

Pouring out of your laugh

And into my blankness


You have found the lines

And decided what colors go where


You have filled me up

Painted me into existence


I have gone from a pencil sketch

To a breathing being


I have no end

And no beginning

Only a forever route of lines to follow

And curves to trace with brushes

Or maybe hands

She was a child once. A child young
And innocent and full of energy and she
was hurt. Cuts and scrapes can be recovered from
easily. Mindset cannot be replaced. Now,
she wears a neon sign that flashes: Broken.
That screams: Help me. That pleads: Save me.
And yet, her face is a page full of smiles and lies.
She is the girl that every boy wants and every girl
wants gone. She is lipstick smears and
morning after pills and [she is cutting herself in the bathroom
again] She is beauty at the point of dissolve.
Her mask of make-up cracks and in those cracks,
You can see a wall of tears. She was a child once:
a child young and innocent and full of energy.
And now, now she is on the evening news.
She is the daughter every mother is ashamed of.
Docket number 7356. A DUI added to the mix. She
Is the one at the high school reunion everyone says:
what happened to her? And her answer? What is it?
"I grew up." She was a child once. Then she grew up.

I want to breathe you in
Feel your skin upon mine
In
Simplistic satisfaction

I want to hear your heartbeat
And feel your hot breath
On the back
Of my neck as I fall
Asleep

I want to live in the afterglow of nothing
Of Pure happiness
And lazy content

I want to see your smile
At every stage
And have your laugh on repeat
Next to me

I want to see your face
At two in the morning
As you let your dreams
Take you away
And I want to know
That I am part of them

I want you to let down your
Iron-clad
Walls
And let me in

I want to be
So very selfish

I want to know your
Memories and
Pain and
Triumphs and
Falls and
Every little thing that can make
You smile

I want to record every second
I spend with you
To watch again
When we are apart

I want to see you grow
To see the sun bathing your
Skin
And it's warm, sandy texture
To be pressed against mine

I want to soar with you
Over all of the hate
And misery
And corruption
In the world

"I can take on the world with
One hand
So long as you
Hold the other"

I want to love you
In the childish
Pure
Fresh and simple
Sense of the world

I want to explore you
And everything
That you are built from

I want to know every
Twist
And turn
That makes up your soul

I want to be
So very selfish

I want to brace you to
The storms
And inevitable pain
You will face

I want to kiss away every tear
And memorize every contour
Of your face

I want to laugh with you
I want to laugh for you
Because of you

I want to invite you into my world
And my heart
I want to share with you
Everything that can be shared

I want to feel your muscles
Ripple and contract
Underneath me
As your mind disconnects
From this world

I want to discover with you
Every part of yourself
You haven't yet explored

I want our breath to mingle
In and ever-present
Greeting
Of hello
And "I love you"

With you I want to reach the end of
The rainbow

Share in disappointment
And bliss
Misery and
Ecstasy

I want to hear you call my name
Everyday
So I won't be forgotten

I want to watch you
Break apart
And lose your way
And
I want
To be there
To help you Re
Discover Yourself

I want to hold you in my
Arms
And run my hands all
Across you

I want to be
So very selfish

I want to give you back rubs
When you've had a
Stressful day

I want to get lost with you
I want to explore with you
I want to ignore the world
With you

I want to watch the
Sunset'~'Moonrise'~'Moonset'~'Sunrise
With you huddled by me

I want to know everything that
Bothers you
Everything that makes you angry
Everything that makes you cry out
In anguish
Or defeat

I want to share a lazy morning
Cup of tea
Or slice of toast
With you

I want to face the darkness
So long as
Your eyes will guide me

I want to sit on a dirt road
In the middle of nowhere
Curled tight against you
Under a blanket
And watch a campfire burn out
And the stars replace the flames
As our light source

But being with you makes me
Shine so very bright
Anyways

I want to be
So very selfish

And have you by my side

Your arms lift me up
From the crumbling bits I've always been
Softly the stars fall down
And we wish on every dream we have
Melodies of love captured
And floating
In the bubbles we blow during summer nights
On the roof of our apartment
With Christmas lights strung around to imitate
The lightning bugs we imagine
And the light
Dances on your smile
And in these moments
When your arms lift me up
From the crumbling bits I've always been
I see the sun
And I know peace

When my tears are blinding
And I cannot take another step
Weakness dominates me
And I cannot fight for myself
Those lightning bug nights
And your smile
Keep me going
From destroying myself
Into laying in a field of flowers
Watching my dreams float slowly by
With you at my side
I turn to you and see
Your face illuminated by the sun
And soft wheat grass
The golds and greens and beauty
Looking out of place in front of you

Your broken spirit is beautiful
And your tears heal any wound
I know the pain and waves that come with misery
The washing and overwhelming
Drowning in your past is easy
The current can pull you under
And the numb is beautiful in those
Moments when time stops
And I see your smile
I will pull you from that pain
And fly with you into tomorrow
With it's feather soft promises
Brushing our skin with strength
To carry on

We find salvation in our mutual destruction
And in those moments when you save me
My flesh remembers you so well
Your touch and brush and feel
The memory of yesterday can haunt you
I know
It has been so long since you whispered my name
Yet the waves are below me
And your love has made a raft
That sits calmly on the water
Which reflects the sunset magically
And in the sunlight
I can see your smile
And it saves me
By lifting me up
From the crumbling bits I've always been