It has taken me a whole life time
To realize how you each played a part
That I have loved each and every one of you
And you still live on in my heart

I still remember all the kindness
That each one of you gave to me
And I've learned to forgive the times that
You had to answer to your own needs

And I also remember the promise
Between my heart and my head
That I would treasure every one of you
Until at least the day I was dead

Sure there were times I couldn't show it
With my anger or pain in the way
And there were times I didn't know it
But I tell you I know it today

So tonight I'm keeping that promise
I'm keeping that promise in mind
When I tell you all I remember you
and I thank you for being so kind

Yes tonight I'm keeping that promise
And I'm taking that promise to heart
When I tell you all I still love you
Even though we've long been apart

James H. Webb

(Laura Carol Hillier - April 11, 1997 – January 20, 2016)

I have memories of a girl so full of love and living
I can still hear songs that came from a voice of woven gold
But now I see hearts that are left so broken and so shattered
They are starved of your warmth and how it touched their souls

You were an angel and in the end you were such a fighter
You were someone whom so many held so close and so dear
And in those hard times when we couldn't seem to find the rainbow
Well your bright smile was always there to light the path so clear

But what will the rain do now it doesn't have your shoulder?
How can the sun shine, even half, as bright or true?
How can the day begin when you were the light of morning?
How can the night ever end now we don't have you?

In your eyes there lived such kindness and in every word you chose
And in your grace, poise and beauty a Disney princess arose
We admired your compassion - how much you cared and let it show
We loved your love of living and treasured your heart of gold

But now so many futures are left like blown out candles
Too many journeys of walking tightropes in high winds
So many moments that will always be remembered
When in your way you touched us all and left your heart within


But what will the rain do now it doesn't have your shoulder?
How can the sun shine, even half, as bright or true?
How can the day begin when you were the light of morning?
How can the night ever end now we don't have you?*

I don't know how Hope can seem so close and yet be so     far     away
Or how the plans we make at night can change with the light of day
But when I can find no answers - your words always come to mind
"Life is a song" and love is the rhythm and mem’ries the melody line

J.H. Webb
xoxo

What's the reason for this
What's the purpose
What's the cause
What makes you think
That you have won
When you know that you have lost

Well you're not the one that's leaving
You're the one already gone
You hid you're inner weakness
But that didn't make you strong
All the days we spent together
When the summers were so hot
All the doubts that you kept within
All the love that you did not

What's the reason for this
What's the purpose
What's the cause
What makes you think
That you have won
When you know that you have lost

Yes it's over - its done with
The end has come at last
But are you rushing to the future
or running from the past
Do you wash away your mem'ries
Or just store them on the shelf
Do you ever take them down
and feel sorry for yourself

What's the reason for this
What's the purpose
What's the cause
What makes you think
That you have won
When you know you have lost

J. H. Webb

I can't get down to the bone
I can't get to the marrow
I live on the surface now
or I'd drowned in the sorrow

You were never really here
Just a phantom of my thighs
And I was never really wrong
'Cause you were never really right

And the stars they burn bright
Through little holes in the sky
And the distance is as endless
As the beauty of your eyes

But patience is a virtue
That you never really learned
And its winter here forever
Until your love returns

by James H. Webb

Well the night was young and early
But the tension was still there
I had watched you go and f##k him
There was *** still in your hair

And then as you were leaving
You gifted me that deadly blow
You said I f##ked him for a reason
And I just wanted you to know

They say love is all that matters
It's eternal is what  they say
Crooked is the hole that flatters
and the quiet always find a way

And beauty sits there breathless now
Her cigarette thrown in the snow
She has to try hard for an excuse how
No one understands or knows

We let oceans grow between us
like they ever mattered at all
We make mountains out of mole hills
then complain when they fall

We're a poor excuse for spouses
But in love we rule the game
We've saddened all the angels
and put the devils all to shame

James H. Webb

Dec 12, 2015

Bad news comes late at night
From a ringing telephone
No trumpet's blare, just tears are there
And they come on their own

Memories flash; hope is lost
Your stomach turns to stone
Your anger has nowhere to stand
And so you stand alone

Bad news comes like a storm at sea
When there's no sign of shore
You don't know where to turn to now
You don't even pace the floor

The endless night is all you see
There is no sign of dawn
The reason for your life is gone
Yet you must carry on

You'll never be the same again
That much you know for sure
Pain invades your ev'ry breath
And for that there is no cure

Indeed there is no end in sight
No light, no burning wood
And you won't believe me when I say
You did all that you could

And I can't change the world for you
But I would do most any task
So if there's anything you need
All you have to do is ask

James H. Webb

Jan 25, 2013

Move like the wind
Bend like the willow
But don't lay your head
Alone on the pillow
Dream all you dare
Wish what you will
‘Cause you're alive for a short time
But for a long time you’re still

Life’s in the balance
Death’s at the gate
Sure no one can argue
It’s a delicate state
But you might as well continue
This dance and this drill
‘Cause you're alive for a short time
But for a long time you’re still

So keep an eye on the shoreline
And the light of the day
But don't let the child
In your heart sail away
And don't be afraid of
The other side of the hill
‘Cause you're alive for a short time
But for a long time you’re still

Now the baby is crying
But the old man he smiles
‘Cause he remembers walking
Her mother down the aisle
First it’s flowers in blossom
Then it’s cold winter chills
You're alive for a short time
But for a long time you’re still

So pack up your troubles
Then put them away
Focus on the good times
Make those feelings stay
Love everything deeply
And get your hearts fill
‘Cause you're alive for a short time
But for a long time you’re still

J. H. Webb