she sleeps
the moon was her mother
telling her bedtime stories
and I
was a night light

let the monsters slip
back into the imaginations
and we shall sleep

tonight
god holds us like blanket

the white sheets warp you like a ghost
I was her ghost
her light

shining only to love her
only so she can sleep
again and again and again
peaceful

that she was

her dreams
they cry
but she still breaths

undisturbed
though she maybe

On a Night Like Tonight
When the body grows too weary
to hold up the emotional walls
the demons attack
memories best laid to rest
awaken with a vengeance
sent to destroy my soul

The past I cannot escape
yet I have closed myself off
I will not share this burden
the fear of reject is far too great
the fear of letting someone in
to help me heal, to help me grow
is not enough
to open the door
that leads to the darkest room
no light shines in
the blackest of blacks
a tiny piece of my soul
charred
the flame can not be reversed
the fire that consumed me
burning me alive
the unnatural need
fed by the wolves
raised by the bears

i see the moon rising
it brings out the worst in me
dawn will not break
in my apocalypse

the storm clouds gather
to weak to stop it coming
my walls have fallen
and tonight
begins again
with the all or nothing fight

haunting
hunting
killing the happiness that grows
the lies so deep
they becomes truths
for the truths are too obscene
too far from reality
they are not truths
for truths are told
they are secrets
locked deep down inside
the kind that follow
always in the shadows
we take them to the grave
which is always too shallow

and those we let in
are the trust few
the trusted one
years of refusal
to finally let it out
the weight was lessened
if only for a time
for now he is gone
and my secret remains
my deepest battle scar
that brings out my worst
the world full of hurt
as the demons take control

I should have know better
but in youth
what do we really know
a trust so deep
the lies never showed
a wrong painted as right
a tiny soul was tainted
a tiny heart was broken
as a different side emerges
the trauma never fades
even in time
it lurks under the surface
waiting
for a night like tonight

no rockets in my horizons
except the music in my ears
they wont let me keep my light on
in this ward of terminal tears
wait in line for my ******
while id skip the queue for you
drugs wrap their limbs around me
while i wish that it was you
baby, be my ******,
i'll never miss a dose
i'll wash you down with sweet devotion
say goodbye to all my lows

your kisses are too small
too selfless, not greedy enough
to pull me from my head which
is what i desire most when i
with another, take to bed.

your caresses are too soft
too delicate, not forceful enough
to push me from my bed which
is what i desire most when i
from another, take head.

stop or I’ll come
she said as if it was a bad thing

confused I lay my head beside hers and looked up
at a picture on her pink bedroom wall

cut out from a magazine
of a minor celebrity

tangled up in a pair of
disembodied long black legs

I said I found the picture offensive
she blamed her mother for putting
it up

I wondered why her mother
would have anything to do
with the decorating of a grown
woman’s bedroom

and thought of all
the minor celebrities who had adorned my
pink bedroom walls

none of whom had ever been
tangled up in a pair of
disembodied long black legs

not to my knowledge anyway

What if I told you I love you?
What if the person inside me
   saw the person inside you
   and told you you were becoming
   what you were meant to be?
Don't look into that shattered mirror again
It's only showing the outside man.
Come
Hold me from behind
Put your arms around me
Your hand in my trembling hand,
  dark eyes cover blue eyes
Come try a glass of my perspective.
If you could see deep into your cobwebbed soul
Dare to step on broken pavement,
I would tell you fear is nothing but a barrier,
  and you already know how to steeple.
Look
At your body on the table.
Open your ears to His fountain
Let me move into your scars and shine into your stars
Let it melt all the way,
  haven't I told you I love the taste of chocolate?
Now we're going to go underground
  test out your roots
  knock on your core
  count the rings of your forgiven sorrow
You know that your strength is unknown,
   your enemy your own
Handsome hand
Trace the music and let Him free your impoverished soul.
Can I hold the dusty forbidden key?
Let your weight fall upon me
   there's more than me holding you up
Follow my gaze
Don't turn away
For what if I told you
  I only flutter for you
What if I told you you already know how to dance
  our bodies in rhyme
  our minds in time
 Colors bleed from me to you,
Storms may pursue.
But what if I told you
  I've grown up right next to you?
  that I love your color blue
Yes I heard you when you told me
  I drive you crazy and asked "can I keep you?"
Check your back pocket.
   this is the receipt.
For I told you I'm holding hands with a man
  and he's inside of you
I named him Beautiful.