I though I knew Love.
The way one knows their oldest friend,
Far better than they know themselves.
Love, all roses and dramatic declarations.
Love the knight in shining armour,
The arouser of underlying strength.
Love the warmest embrace on the coldest day
When the bitter chill can't die down the flames,
Or cool the burning blush.

Love, walking barefoot across the city,
Carrying your heels,
To save your broken feet.
Love, flying thousands of miles
So that you don't have to face the tears without me.

Love, the sounds of Puccini
Filling the world with just one kiss.
Love, the small favours and the grand gestures.
Love.

I thought I knew Love.
As vital to me as the moon to the earth.
But yet here I stand, alone.
Injured, weak.
Love my Delilah,
I was your Samson,
Now I sit among the braids you cut from me,
Among the life you stole from me.
Love I never knew you at all.
For who could hope to understand,
The chaos of a woman's heart,
And the destruction of an ill chosen
Love

Your words run in my veins,
I never saw the sky,
Until I saw it through your eyes.
I never saw you,
Until I read you first.
Your words took shape,
They climbed from the page
And crept into my heart.
Don't let it be just the pen you hold tonight.
Don't let the paper be all you lean on.
Don't let those words be all you say.
For I can't breathe for looking at you,
I can't think for the sight of you.
And I swear til this day I never understood
This language we share
But now the air is full of words,
Written on the body of you.

I can't keep up.
You keep changing the rules
and moving the goals.
I don't know where's safe to stand,
You are constantly pulling the rug from under me.
I'm tired,
I'm broken-down.
You reign triumphant,
A Cheshire grin on an angel's face,
Masking the heart of a devil.

I thought I had finally found you,
But you evade me still.
I want to find you,
Buried in my sheets.
I want to map you,
Discover you.
Lose myself in the endless landscape
Of your body.
I want to explore the secret scenery
of your soul.
Swim in your eyes,
Bask in the warmth of your smile.
I want to become a native of you,
Relish in the language of you
And plant my flag,
In your heart.

But more than all this

I want you to love me.

It was the simplicity that struck me,
That stopped me.
That single simple tear,
Tearing its way through the facade
Forging through her make up,
Revealing the pale, naked truth beneath.
Before falling silently
Into oblivion.

Her eyes seemed to shine
With a heart wrenching tragedy.
Her hands trembled
Her voice shook,
And she bit her lip
With a sense of desperation
With a need to control
The screams that brewed beneath.

Is it so easy
To break a heart?
I watched as the light left her eyes,
As the hope left her,
And her body crumpled.
She became so small,
So broken,
In such a public place
Her world was torn apart.

The waitress kept working,
The patrons kept chatting,
But I could not hear
over her heart cracking.
Slowly her mask was melting
The bravado disappearing,
And the vulnerable reality started to show.

Now the tears are flowing fast,
Hot and heavy they are drowning her.
She is gulping for air,
She is stifling the sobs,
She is shaking from the pain.
She doesn't see me,
She doesn't see any of us.

But I see her,
I feel her.
I can hear her heart breaking,
I can hear the white noise
Of so many thoughts racing through her mind.
I can feel her tears
As they burn down my face.

Is it so easy,
To break a heart?

I see the lonely
I see the lost.
I see the tears that filled these rivers.
I see the broken hearts.
Scattered like autumn leaves.
As the busy crowds crush them underfoot.

I see their empty eyes
And their painted faces,
Their smiles are as hollow
as their hearts.
They disguise their tears as raindrops,
As they walk the streets alone.
Forgotten.

I see the lost
And the lonely.
The tragedy that fills their days.
Unrequited
Unaccepted
Unappreciated
Unrecognised

I see them
I know them
I walk beside them
We, the unloved
Forever in love
Forever loyal.
Lonely
Lost
Forevermore

I've fallen.
Further
and
Harder
than Lucifer.

From the safety above
to this fiery cavern
where passion triumphs.

Grace was idyllic
But I would jump gladly again
in a heartbeat
Just to see your smile.

Though condemned
My heart still beats
my mind still wanders
and my body yearns.

The bitter sweet agony
the lick of the flames
and the torment of you.

Did i fall?
Was i pushed?
Or did I jump?