have you ever felt like you were in a hurricane?
or losing a fight that wasn't a fight after all?
or feeling those feelings that aren't your's to feel?
drowned by the weight of the world and caught in its spinning wheel?
they'll say that you're not alone
they'll say that you're not the only one
but how do they know how it feels?
how can they tell you it's not real?

until they've...felt for themselves what its like to have your world cave in
suffocate on the words you can't say to the people you love and who love you most
they can't tell you that you're wrong
they can't tell you that you need to be strong
because they don't know how it feels to see the light you need to be alright
but not be able to reach, for safety

have you ever wished for something bad to happen?
cause pain is all that you know how to feel?
Guilt comes with the joy and comfort the darkness you appeal?
they'll say that you're not alone
they'll say that you're not the only one
but how do they know how it feels?
if they say it was never really real?
cause it feels so real

they need to see for themselves how it feels to be stuck in a glass box
everyone that you love is standing around
watching the world that you built burn to the ground
and as you run out of air, they say "we'll always be there"
because they don't know how it feels to see the light you need to be alright
but not be able to reach, for safety

and eventually
its like one, two, three
you'll wave that flag
let somebody in
and you'll keep telling yourself
its just a matter of time
before they see inside
and go to run and hide
from the skeletons
you hide with pride
cause for once you tried
to see the light inside
and reach for safety

how does it feel?
to know it was real?

Anxiety, do you think you love me?
Oh mind, do you want to be my friend?

A lonely stone in the full quarry
No chance that it will begin to swim

Shadow girl, with your many faces
With every ash you take to sin

Big voiced tropes steady unfolded
A fear to never tell again

Everyone is lonely inside,
our soul is what we fight to hide.
We believe that we seek companionship,
but our hearts are shadowed by a darker tint.
We shelter ourselves in protective glass,
trying to reach something not within our grasps.
We seek the love we cannot find,
picturing a paradise trapped within the boundries of our mind.
We will never stop wanting something better,
we are all birds with wings but no feathers.
We shall not find what we are looking for here nor there,
perpetually feeling lonely in a world marked unfair.

random words filter with each beat
pushing through the webs spun
fine silk
coarse wire
the heart being the seed.

Surrounded by people
Ones who care
Still feeling awful
Knowing I have to go home

Those beautiful eyes,
That once contained happiness,
Are now raging with anger,
Clearly displaying that the flame within you is now untamed,
Taking over as if it's your master and you are its puppet.
The cuts on your arm,
Match the ones on your heart,
Leaving scars of remembrance.
The shadows you now live in,
Consume the new you,
Gradually crushing the source of life........the pulse of what used to be.

do you know what it is
like to be at war within
yourself?
to question every thought,
action and word that escapes
the dark recesses of your
cerebral nature?
it is as though you stand
upon a double edged sword
and if you fall to one-side
you are doomed,
but if you fall to the other,
you are met with perilious
journeys
yet while making this choice,
your feet slip on the red,
hot, sticky warnings left
by others
so I walk on a tightrope
careful to find balance,
for if I slip,
and cascade down the sword,
I fear I may not be able
to climb back up
to face the mirror
oncemore.