I feel that strain in my stomach again
Like crashing waves and lightning bolts
The skies seem to have a glow of orange and red
I take a deep breath yet nothing but negativity roams my head

In this current state all I want is to be alone
Yet I wonder why I’m always lonely as if I’m trapped in this
None existent dome
Windows that show everything I don’t want to see
Everyone is doing just fine without me

I want to live by happiness not by misery
Maybe because I grew up in the age of transition
But so did all the others from the same generation
Falling like Alice down the garden hole
Bumping my head but bruising my soul

It takes time to recover from stress and depression
I’m not sure how long exactly but I think I’m close
Time runs away faster than you could ever imagine
I refuse to waste it on being sad.

-Joshua L-m