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Francesca Dec 2013
You used to trace patterns
Across my back
With your finger
After ***
And we'd lie there in silence
And I'd fall asleep feeling safe
With your skin on my skin
You would carry on well after I drifted off
I would wake up if you stopped too suddenly
I was sensitive like that
The vulnerable feeling would return
But I had to learn not to rely on you
To make me feel safe
Because when you left
I had to toughen up again
So I didn't feel so exposed
When your absent hands
Were tracing patterns on someone else's back
And whenever you came back to me
And you'd trace along my skin again
It was as if your fingers were empty
Hollow
Francesca Dec 2013
She is on the rocks and every smile he throws at her
Makes her less and less stable, knocking her back, making her regret
All the times she said something, all the times she never said anything.
She wants to be howling again
Howling at him, at the stars and the moon, at the world
So that everyone knows she can feel something
And that she isn't just a cold and heartless wretch
Who knew the meaning
But forgot the feeling
Of love, of hate, of pain, of pride.
She doesn't know that she is perfect in his eyes,
In everyone's eyes.
She tunes out the affection
That she so desperately craves.
She is convinced that the world is working against her.
It has been working in her favor ever since she brought into
The world she thinks to be so harsh.
Francesca Nov 2013
I know your name
And the bus you take at 8:15 in the morning
Right after you get a large coffee.
I know you like to have a smoke
Before you get on the same bus as me in the evening.
I know who our mutual friends are
They are how I know who you are.

We're always around each other
I see you nearly everyday
But we haven't spoken
No matter how much I would like to.

I know some things about you
But I don't know you.
You intrigue me.
You're quiet mystery intrigues me.
Oh, what I would give to really know you.
Francesca Nov 2013
You ruined me
But I want you
To ruin me more
Because it means
I would have felt your touch.
I would **** to feel your touch
Even if it
Burns my skin
Breaks my jaw
Pulls my hair
Destroys me.
I will take that pain
If it comes from you.
I can't get enough.
I need more.
Francesca Oct 2013
The leaves will change with the seasons,
From green, to red, to brown then fall,
But after they fall they always grow back.

You will change too,
From ecstatic to depressed and then you'll fall,
But when you fall you wont come back.

You are not like a leaf on a tree,
You are not so easily replaced,
Once you are gone a new you does not appear to repeat the cycle.

I love you.
Francesca Oct 2013
Why can I only tell you I love you when we're fighting?
I can only say it with that bitter tone caused by my anger
When I want to wring your neck.

Why can't I say it without including a swear word?
I ******* love you, you ******
Is the only way I can be sincere about it.

Why can't I put into words exactly how I love you?
I don't want to be with you forever, you are not my 'soul mate'
I love you realistically yet I still can't fully fathom it.

Why do you make me feel so vulnerable?
When it comes to you I'm weak
And that scares the **** out of me.
Francesca Oct 2013
I don't want to stop losing sleep over you
No matter how exhausted I am
Every morning.
If I stop losing sleep over you
It means you're out of my mind
And I can't imagine a mind of mine
That you don't occupy.
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