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Apr 2020 · 78
swell
Ishka Apr 2020
too much, too fast
gorging each bit
each morsel
the brain begins to swell

the eyes flitting
unconsciously
unable to close
firm and certain

like a lid over a container not made for it
(yet still pushing... hoping it was the right one)

has it been 10 years?
has it really been - no - 10 years?
sleeping

awoken by
a shard of glass
sticking out from the
chest in the attempt
to reach for
something inside...

if there was yet
anything left inside

just to see if the dust
for so long has settled
on memories, no longer there

is it time to sleep again?
Feb 2019 · 168
now
Ishka Feb 2019
now
Drink some water
Take a deep breath
Have some discipline
And energy.

Always have energy.
Sep 2017 · 282
[cry]
Ishka Sep 2017
When you're failing at everything,
it's time to stop talking
[cry]
and then start doing.


And keep doing.
Sep 2017 · 219
empty spaces
Ishka Sep 2017
so many empty spaces
around me.

i cannot place where to go.

my heart yearns for more.

yet my energy is faltering.
Jul 2015 · 392
be awake
Ishka Jul 2015
dare to be awake,
––don't dare
be awake

every minute
every hour
every day

as you watch people pass by
as you receive the ocean's breeze
as the sand freeze your feet
as the people you love cry
as you linger
as you say hi
as you take that first bite
as hear your own footsteps
as you squeeze shampoo onto your hand
as you close every car door
as you fall
as you gasp for air after 40 laps in the pool
as you touch hands
as you feel wool
as your teeth chatter in the cold
as you brace the sun's heat on your cheeks
as you place your earring into place
as you lose your wallet
as you bite your lip
as you tear up after yawning
as your insides are mixed up into feelings of longing
as your heart beats beside someone you want
as you rest your head on the hard train window

...

as you sleep
as you die

pay attention

be awake
*boarding from SYD back to MNL
Apr 2015 · 357
It Was She
Ishka Apr 2015
A cold January night
All curled up under blankets
The tears were shaken sideways as
She stared at the book before her

The story wasn't sad. Not at all.
Ishka Apr 2015
That the faintest light blares a spectra
of peach, lavender, and lemon
with an abeyance of smoke, stark white
would awaken a dizzy dozen

Just two hours ago they were of
intoxicated madness
eyes burned by the dancing sea of salt, the moving stars of dust
by loud, blistering laughs, forgetful kisses

(under the haloed crystal ball)

now, it peeps, the faint light
hiding but ready to shine, ready to die

but why chase it at the process of
its rise and fall
when at noon, the dozen cowers,
detests its scorching gall

That attention is paid to this beginning and end
one blink, then the dozen looks away

for the light has revealed the sand on their knees
for the darkness has left them hanging, searching

for a faint light to chase, then bypass all day
Mar 2015 · 601
today was enough
Ishka Mar 2015
today was enough

the walk around that art installation entitled THE GRID
where the artist has nylon strings strapped from ground to sky, meant for the setting sun to shine upon

through craft pull out stores called WOLFE+HUNTR and HEY KESSY
that bakery called LUCCA and their bad tuna sandwich

a saturday riddled with simplicities
questions asked and then answered
emails sent and taut conversations with a high-strung aunt

today was enough

my blood test screams NORMAL platelet count
268 from wednesday's 31
music says it's alright

today was enough
Feb 2015 · 386
nothing is sweeter
Ishka Feb 2015
"with every date it gets harder"

-who said that?

"why do we have to part?"

"because I want you to grow."

- will I truly?

--

nothing is sweeter, oh nothing

than a good morning message

or, maybe there is!

a good night

yes, a good night

---

we ask, why
Feb 2015 · 387
It's been 5 years
Ishka Feb 2015
Tonight I rest my head on his shoulder
For the last time we will have witnessed the

play that began it all

Sinta

it's been five years

My tears fall as I clutch his chest
He continues to look at the road

I try to hold onto that scent
his wonderful scent

he tries to hold back his tears

and it's been five years
Boyce Avenue's cover of Teenage Dream is playing

and yes, he is my teenage dream

now I am 20, and he 21
we must part

we must grow apart and find another dream

— The End —