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Nikki Oct 2017
My heart is not a tool
It’s tired of being broken down and played with

Oh how you've let me down so many times but I stood by you
Just like a fool who was just too blind to see through you
Until the day that I realized
Your chains of lies were habits too light to be felt
You refuse to break your patterns because you are afraid that you’ll finally feel

Feel the pain that you selfishly pushed aside!
My first thought was, how can a man be so cruel?
I took a chance and jumped with you
You shattered me into tiny little pieces
And I still picked them up while bleeding
And put them back into your hands

I TRUSTED YOU! And for a while we were happy
You were happy!

But you still couldn’t see that
Your mind does not have to be your prison
You don’t have to stay locked up in the past that have let you down so many times!

I saw the love in an empty heart and selflessly made it mines

Why do you put yourself through this?
Why do you stay with him?
To answer your questions

I had a lot of reasons to give up on him, but choose to stay because he's been hurt by people whose never been taught how to love. He once took my pain and made it his own, he saved me! So why shouldn’t I save him?
Nikki Sep 2017
I have been taught that I should always act ladylike, I've been taught that no means NO!
I've learned that in this society men and women are put into categories and we are not seen as equals.
I've learned that my skin is light but I am still black.
I've seen how men treat women like toys, objects, that they think they can just **** with whenever they want to. My body's a temple and you will treat it as such!
Because I am female, suddenly I am not STRONG enough, TALL enough, FAST enough, SMART enough.
I can't be the boss or have drinks with the guys because your ego is too SMAll to handle it!
Don't even get me started on when I say "I am not interested sorry" cause the best you can come up with is " Man you ugly anyways!"
I laugh, baby boy can't you see my kind have evolved, I don't need you to make me feel good about myself.
I am a woman, a queen, a goddess truly worth sacrificing for, my kind has been ruling long before you were even born.
The best parts of me can make any men fall to their knees. I have powers that you can't begin to imagine.
So throw me to the wolves because I will return leading the pack!
I am a misbehaved women, I am ambitious, and strong I will make history trust me!
I will take what I want and look **** good while doing it.
I'd rather struggle every day of my life and have nothing! rather to give a man the power to say "you wouldn't have this if it wasn't for me"
                So this goes out to all of my strong women, may I grow to be one, and may I live to raise one.
Nikki Sep 2017
Your eyes
Your eyes  are the ones I seek
The way they shine so sleek
Your eyes are what I need  
They take in everything, the way they feed
Your eyes I see so clear
They hold despair
All your deepest desires unacted on and it’s unfair

They see the world so differently
Finding beauty in everything and purpose in life
Oh how I envy your eyes and the way they glow in the night
Such beautiful creature should not possess such dangerous weapons
Give me your eyes!
For mines are too blind to see
Give me the gift that no one else seeks

Tell me what you see when you look into my eyes?

When I look into your eyes I see a pair not so different from mines
I see the burden of every lost  child
I see a lost soul trying to find light
Stranger with the dark eyes I'll be your beacon but only if  you learn to open your mind
I can’t give you my eyes
For mines were born blind.
Nikki Sep 2017
Dear mother
I wish we could choose which memories to remember,
because how I wish I never met him last December.
How can one heart be so full of hurt and anger?
Why is my heart so tender?
It's so hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember
He knew exactly what he was doing when he left with her,
So how can I forgive someone who promised me forever?
Oh, mother, I think I need a defender
It’s all my fault I should have known better!
But he thought he was clever, he was supposed to be my lover!
But he filled her with pleasure!
He knew I had a temper!
Cause when I found her number I thought he would never.
Turns out she knew we were together, he called her his treasure!
Now they’re in a slumber
Oh God he’s turned me into a sinner
Now to who will I write my love letters?

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