Alcohol is like a Drug
You drink it as if it was water
Alcohol use to be considered an illegal drug
You want Alcohol everyday
Alcohol destroys a family
But yet you still drink it
Alcohol is the reason most people die
But you say you don't care

And that is why I VOW to never drink!

My mind shuts off
My legs start to shake
My heart starts pounding like a drum
My words can't come out
I don't know what to do when i'm around you

You're the reason my family thinks I have changed,
I might have changed, but to me I've changed in a good way
Or so i think.
I'm love-stricken to know the difference of anything

And I can say it's because of you

Rising black puffy smoke appears from the trees,
Destroying everything in its path,
Bright colored wild flames are at  the top,
The crowning flames become a firestorm as fires' heads combine,
The only thing I can think of is unstoppable,
Unstoppable memories will always be in my mind
never being able to forget such frightening images,
Trying to stop it would be useless,
Useless was exactly the word for the trees,
Over and over it was getting harder to breathe,
It was taking life from the trees and me,
Last heartbeat's fading in the night,
Finally after what seemed like forever it was over,
Dark crumbled ashes lay beyond my path,
Nothing is all I will ever see

When I see that beautiful smile of yours my breath is taken away.
My heart pounds so hard inside of my chest, I hope you wont hear.
I think I know you so well and yet I don't know you at all.

My feelings for you
I don't always show and
As time goes on
They seem to grow.

Oh.. How I should have told you how I felt.. Now I can't change the time back.
Now I can't see that beautiful smile be directed at me..
But I can only see the damage that I have done
Now I feel warm tear drops fall from my eyes
As I think what once was, will never be
The intense feelings that we once felt are now in our shadows

My thoughts for you
I tend to show and
As times goes on
They seem to grow

Your shadow was growing, As was mine
But our intense feelings are the light
To cast away the shadows
Our happy memories kept us strong at will

Now you look at me and wipe away my tears
Your smile makes me feel at peace
The shadows have yet to appeared

How is it even considerable for friends to go back on eachother
To act like there not friends even if they were talking and laughing together
It's only sad to see only one of the two friends truely get hurt,
When the true friend did everything and anything for that person
And when the true friend let the other person know them inside out
It is really debastating when something like that happens
You can only imagine how the other person is feeling
Their heart must have shattered in a million pieces when it happened
And it makes you wonder how a friend can do that to you
When the truth is they were never your friend

One day I will fly away,
I will break from this cage
In which they have captured me
And spread my wings
To escape from this god forsaken place.

I will spread my wings
And fly in the blue open sky,
I will welcome the wind just as it welcomes me
And fly over the bright colored cities,
I will see the rivers, oceans, and the seas,
And even do things the way that I please.

I will see the wonders of the world just as they see me,
But until then I am....here
In this place that I don't want to be

A blank piece of paper to me is like
A blank canvas to an artist, and
We can both make it into  
Whatever we want,
however we want,
and whatever we believe.
Exactly like I was born,
Life was blank to me.

If you don't know me, then don't make a promise to me,
because making a promise to me,
is like holding on to my heart.

But out of everyone in the world,
You were the one I trusted the most,
And you dared to make not 1 but 2 promises,
You of all people knew the consequences.

Yet that day came,
Not only did you brake both of the promises,
You lied about it, and to me...
How could I ever trust you again,
When you just ripped out my heart in front of me.

If only you knew,
How you broken me

I lie down under the shade of the tree.
There's only one tree on top of the hill.
I'm not exactly under the tree.
I'm on the side of the hill and the shawdow of the tree streches out towards me.
It's perfect with shade and warm sunlight that feels like a blanket
which seeps through the cracks of the leaves and the nice brezze.
I lay there thinking of nothing at all,
my worries were earsed from my mind.
What did I have to worry about? Worries were the reason I was here.
Slowly and slowly the atmosphere starts to take me into slumber.....

My eyes open a crack,
they start lieing to me  because  I see someone standing over me.
The sunlight is glimming on the person.
For I am still partly in the shade.
We glare at eachother hard not sure what to think.
then at random A weird warm feeling started to grow inside,
we both ease our gazes and I feel at peace again.
I've never felt this feeling before but it was the greatest....

What to do, what to do
On a boring day that has really no meaning
But yet everyday is a gift not a choice or a right
Or maybe it's not the day but the moment of the day
Or perhaps not the moment of the day but yourself
These have to be the questions that haunt me.....

This body once active is now motionless
As pale as a ghost, your soul is no longer the host
Your eyes are closed, and your all dressed and posed.

I wake up and sit up in bed
I sit slouched and try to get the wheels in my head to start
I finally stand up and drag my feet to the closet
I pick random clothes and head to the restroom

After I take a shower I don't feel as lazy as before
Now I skip joyfully to the kitchen to find something to eat
I get some eggs and orange juice which is the usual for me

Now that I finished eating I feel more energetic
So I run back to the room to get my shoes
I put them on as fast as I can and find the brush
It doesn't take long to brush my hair

At this point I feel I can take on the whole world
I run as fast as lightning to the door
And only open it a crack
Take a deep breath and let it out slowly
Then open the door it's full length
And I get out the door to say:

"Hello world!"

"Turn around!"
"No matter how hard I  try I can't get you to come back!"
I wake up and gasp for air,
And I feel stupidity growing within becuase I'm talking to nothing
I only dreamth of you walking away from me
Then my mind starts to wonder uncontrolably

If only I could show you the old photos of me and you
Or the notes that we use to pass during class
Or even remind you of how we use to push eachother on the swing
Or the day that we were in the Halloween parade
Hopefully I could get the chance to tell you of the parties we had
I wish I could tell you everything or anything to get you back
Oh how I can only wish!

If I had the chance to talk to you again I would give
my heart out to you,
To show you that I cared
But would you show me the same thing?
Would you be the same person as before?

You've changed to much and I'm now in Despair...

Whenever you need a shoulder to cry,
I'll be there to catch your tears
I'll keep your secrets locked within,
And never will they escape my lips
I'll show my love,
In your times of trouble
And never frown I ask of you,
Because I'm falling in love with your smile
And when you can't find me above or behind,
Always remember that I'm beside

The only thing that I will always remember is that
You were hard to find,
And will be impossible to forget

Somewhere in the world
There is a place for me
I  have found that place
Inside me

Black star cold night,
I wish I may I wish I might,
Dream upon this winter night.