a boy once told me
I was just like the moon
so beautiful
yet so hidden

that boy was my sun
and I was his moon

I was okay with being the only moon
in his heavenly world
as he was my only sun

but the moon and the sun are tragic lovers
and soon enough
we became their tragic love story

I still cannot understand
How we can find beauty
In people
Objects
Landscapes
Drinks
Food
Weather
When some of us cannot find beauty within ourselves

When the person you love with every being in your body,
No longer wants to be with you,
Your heart breaks three times.

The first time your heart breaks,
Is when you hear the overwhelming words,
“I can’t do this anymore.”
You feel numb and all the memories play in your head,
As you try to find,
Where it all went wrong.

The second time your heart breaks,
Is when,
In spite of everything,
You tell him you still them and feel empty for once.
And all he can do is stare and look away saying,
“I don’t love you anymore.”

The third time your heart breaks,
Is when you see them smile,
But you are no longer the reason for the smile anymore,
For she is holding his hand and you are not.
And you hear the words he once whispered to you,
“I love you.”

It's been the hardest to forget you,
I can still hear your laugh echo off my walls,
And your touch still lingering on my lips,
I do not want you here anymore.
I want to forget you,
And soon enough,
The roses you bought me will die,
The jewelry you bought me will become worthless,
And the jokes you told me will no longer be funny.
If it helps,
I'll lie on the grass to forget you,
And count the stars in the night sky,
Knowing you could never love me,
No matter how many stars give the night light.

I told someone once I loved the stars so much,
Maybe even more than I could ever love myself.
They asked why,
And I answered.
The stars would always be in the night sky,
No matter what I did during the day,
Good or bad,
The stars would always promise to shine ever so brightly.
Even if it was a cloudy night and the stars could not be seen,
A part of me knew they would always be there.  
I then realized,
I wish you were like a star.
You would always be there,
Day after day,
With no chance of ever going away.
Yet that is not life,
And just like everything else besides the stars,
You went away.

They say to try to be happy by yourself,
And not build your happiness on someone’s words or lovely actions,
For they can always slip away,
Into the dark of the night,
Hidden by the new moon.
Yet,
I have accidently built my happiness on you and your words,
And your love for me.
I have built my happiness on you,
Something that can be taken away in a moment,
Yet,
I have never felt happier before.
With you,
Everything seems like it will be okay once again,
And I hope your love for me,
Will last much longer.
Horribly though if you go away in the dark of night one day,
I’m afraid I’ll find myself in my dilemma,
Not knowing what to do with myself after you are gone,
For I built everything on you.
So while you are loving me,
And I am loving you,
I will try to love myself,
And find myself beautiful as you say,
So God-forbid if you leave me,
I will not sink into the deep dark ocean,
Trying to learn how to swim to the top once again,
Sinking to the bottom with rocks at my feet,
Trying to break the surface of the water.

And a part of me still wonder if you had ever loved me,
Or it was just some memory you would flashback to when your old and gray,
And laugh at how much a silly girl could ever be in love with you.
But I did love you,
And I gave you all the love my heart could ever muster.
Maybe a part of me thought I would look back at this memory as well,
Except I would be laughing at it with you,
Both of us old and gray,
Remembering our high school memories,
How that one time Cole got locked in the bathroom,
Or that football game you won with your team,
Or that night out we had with our friends,
Eating pizza and laughing till the sun came out.
But we all changed and so did you,
You found her and my heart was still stuck to you.
Our friends moved on,
And now we are starting to all get old and gray,
Now I'm aging to 64,
And I ever wanted was you.