this feeling that i just cant shake
the pressure of everyone
and everything
constantly slapping me across the face.
low feelings of self confidence
self worth.
constantly comparing
to every person
girl
idea
that comes across my path.
but nobody can know.
they handled too much before.
my needy ways and greedy nature
aren't an option any longer.
ill keep it in
for as long as i need
for as long as i have to
for as long as i can
forever.

she who hated herself
just because it was something to do
little did she know that she would find something real
something real that had been hiding so well within her
that even she forgot it was there
all the self loathing
all the self hate
soon transformed to self destruction
everything fell onto her on that one sad night
that little spark
fire
passion
of overwhelming sadness and hate
rekindled
that one sad night
all that sadness she decided to leave long ago
and never look back.
little did she know it had been watching over her the entire time
waiting for a time to take the lead
all over again.