alone again
my heart lies spattered upon the floor as my world crumbles its crushed over and over again
i feel the pain and hate rise again
they say they love me but do they mean it or i am i just falling again
everyone around me is happy and loved
while i sit in the dark and cry alone

deep dark sweet
i feel the crimson rush pass my lips and flow over my tongue
it feel slide down my throat
i crave it i love it i need it

you break my heart yet i cant break away you twisted my soul distorted my vision why wont you let me go why cant i just leave im in pain when i stay by your side but i can bare the thought of being alone what i to do i love and hate you at the same time my heart is mangle a strange mess of bits and pieces shattered around should i end it all or stay to clean up what is left should hold to you and let you destroy me

they all want me to cry
they all want me to die
i feel torn apart inside and out
i dont know why
all i want to do is cry
all i want to is die

the dark angel sit watching it's last sunset
with wings ready for flight. to fly where?
no one knows
wings of night, wings of fright they do fly
to feast upon eternal life to rest before the sunrise
only to rise again

death follows me like a dark cloud
it swallows me and takes me over
cold dark  pain i must have more
as they die i must carry on
when is it my turn to be free of my mortal restraints

a strange liquid falls from their  eyes
it pours down their flesh
their bodies drop and shut down
screams of pain and agony are brought fourth
i bring the pain  i bring the sorrow
i rob them of their life and shallow them whole
i devour  their soul and rip though their flesh

I'm tired of picking up the pieces of my shatter heart
gathering them up gluing them together with hope and tears
when I finish I hand it over
it so fragile and weak
why do they hold it look at it as if it was some kind of oddity
they look upon at it with disgust  and hate
they let it drop to the ground
braking it once more the pieces go everywhere
and most are lost
I pick it up once more
I place it back in it's box
saying never again never again over and over
im I just dumb or just hopeful
that the next one I hand my heart to will treat it
with love and care
I hold it out to anyone willing to look
begging someone  to help me fix it

I'm tired of picking up the pieces of my shatter heart
gathering them up gluing them together with hope and tears
when I finish I hand it over
it so fragile and weak
why do they hold it look at it as if it was some kind of oddity
they look upon at it with disgust  and hate
they let it drop to the ground
braking it once more the pieces go everywhere
and most are lost
I pick it up once more
I place it back in it's box
saying never again never again over and over
im I just dumb or just hopeful
that the next one I hand my heart to will treat it
with love and care
I hold it out to anyone willing to look
begging someone  to help me fix it

the hate poison me
you see it in mind
you see it in my eyes
you can see it deep within my soul
the hate poison me the hate poison you
it pulse though your veins and into your heart
it pollutes the mind and the soul until it takes control

my heart is broken slowly being crushed by the ones who are supposed to love me
fracturing and cracking piece by piece it shatters
pain surges though out my body and i cry out
the shock is to much to bear tears pour from my eyes  as lay on the floor
dead on the inside and it slowly on the out
so cold so numb i cant even feel my heart the beating has stop alone the only sound is tears and the last pieces of my heart hitting on the floor

a heart cold as ice
it float like a glacier in a sea of darkness
it melts when exposed to the heat of love and happiness
then freezes again at moments of sadness and hate
your heart is cold and alone
its an  iceberg that not even i could break no matter what i do your cold heart throws me back into your dark sea
but i must go i have given up
i swim away from your dark sea to reach a new place away from your cold dark heart
as i swim something within the ice calls to me
i cant look back i must carry on while you stand there and stare from within your frozen prison

Three little words I dare not say
three little words my heart is dying for me to tell
if I hold them in they tear me to shears from the inside out
if I say them out loud im sure the world will crumble
just from the force of my passion
those words I have no clue what they truly mean
I just know the feeling remains trap deep on me
it slow killing me and there no stopping it
and I'm unsure if I want it to
for even though you don't feel the same
being next to you brings me pain and pleasure that I need to go on

i dont know how much more i cant take
im sick of the hate;i sick of all the rejection
sometimes i think;
why i am i still here
why i am i still living
why do i try to live up to their expectations
why should i care when there is no point
they just raise them higher and higher i just want to be free
but when i try to fly, im shot down left bleeding and dying
my heart bleeds the  not by physical wound but emotional one
i put up the walls   and runaway
i let my walls down and they break them apart

the pain in my head can not compare to the pain in my heart
i miss him so
i know the love was short lived but still i miss him
his voice in my ears
his image in my head
i still feel his touch and warm embrace
now i move on to a new love and a new pain

screaming screaming
can anyone hear me
how long have i been here
i have no clue
screaming screaming
till my voice slowly dies away
will anyone ever hear me
screaming screaming
into the silent night

silent screams that only i can hear
they rip my soul to pieces
all i want is the screaming to end and have the silent return once more
but i know it will never stop
slient screams slowly driving me insane

im trapped in a box
a box that is hidden somewhere deep inside
it's cold , dark, and lonely in here
nothing goes in and nothing goes out
i can leave my box anytime i want
but why should i?
so i can feel the pain, the sadness
so i can see the hate and the deceit
so i can taste the bitter sweetness of being unloved and unwanted
i think not, not today
but someday

the darkness is a friend
the darkness is a foe
it protect me from the light and keeps me whole
as the darkness grows t feel more alone
yet part of me is drawn to the light
the light stings my eyes and burns my flesh
i return to the darkness and this is where  i will remain till im ready for the light

twisted thoughts flow though my mind
affecting eyes,affecting my mind
they hide under my flesh, inside my skull inside my brain
the thoughts run wild in my head
I'd do anything to keep them in, but now they thoughts fall from my head to my mouth
my twisted thoughts flow from my mind to yours
affecting your mind, affecting your eyes
now my twisted thoughts belongs to you and i

my heart is breaking i feel like im dying why must it be this i don't want to go your forcing my hand i love you but place this time is slowly killing me im so lonely i feel so cold im not myself anymore i want hold on to what little is left of me

pain surges though me it gives me pleasure it gives regret it stops and starts me it keep me alive it makes me want to die it gives me peace of mind it drives me insane it hurt me it heals me i want it to go away but id be lost with out it i want it more i want it less

dark seduction takes you over
a touch cold as ice
sharp pricing fangs slice into the soft sweet flesh
your old life drains away and the next flood in as the kiss take you over

why does loving  you have to hurt so much
why cant i just tell how feel without the fear of rejection
or losing what we have
for being with you is what gets me though the day
the sound of your voice your smile your laugh
why is it so hard to go bout my day without knowing
if ill hear from you again
why is the thought of losing you the worse pain
then death itself
why do i continue to torture myself with these thoughts that never seem to end
why oh  why