Sometimes I wonder how I managed to hide all this pain within my heart.
That had screamed and banged at the door of my heart, begging for freedom.

Sometimes I wonder how I was able to hide this sorrow.
That had clawed and scratched the wall of my heart ever since.

Sometimes I wonder, how I could afford to carve a smile on this soulless face.
That needs a thousand men’s effort to make it happen.

If there's no one beside you.
When your soul embarks.
Summon me with the shout of your voice.
And I'll come flying with the great of my love.
We then will travel throughout the world.
Until the soles of our shoes all worn down.

Vividly those memories stayed in my mind.
Of how he was before he changed.
How he love to watch soccer live in the stadium.
Better than on tv, even if it's raining.
How he enjoys listening to Paramore, even if he had to save up to buy their album.
How he adore little kids.
Even if he don't know how to play with them.
How he love eating icecream.
Even on rainy cold weather.
How he enjoys playing video games.
Even if he had bunch of other works to do.
How he adore cats.
Even if he had allergic with them.
And...
How he love to make me smile.

I'm tired.
Of all that got to do with the thing we call life.
I know it ain't easy to reach the peak of the top.
I know.
I know that it'll take a whole lot more of tears and wounds.
I know that it'll take more than just a drop of sweat.
I know it'll take more than bruises and cuts.
But yet.
I'm still standing right here.
Not intending to move a muscle.
Not trying to make a change.
Not willing to do a sacrifice.
I know.
I should wake myself up.
So that I'll know where I really stand.
But yet, my mind said stay still and do nothing.

I miss you.
Even when I know you don't.
It's typical for myself to think about you until I fell asleep.
You always fills my thought.
I know I shouldn't feel this way.
Cause you're not even mine.
But baby, allow me to love you, please.
I know I'm not pretty, I'm not skinny, I'm not smart.
But darling, I have love.
And I intended to keep it just for you.

I know I'll never be able to open the door to your heart.
I know I'll never be able to wander in your thoughts.
I know I'll never be the one whom you think about when you listen to those love songs.
I know I'll never be the reason to your smile.
I know I'll never be able to hold your heart.
I know.
I just know.